One Seen

0. Teenager's life that looks like this

In this early morning, I got some thought about some matters, those things which appear that they morphed into one formed being. There they are morphed into a questions which disturbingly approaching my mind. The questions itself, is somewhat confusing my mind about the reality that is presented. I wonder, what makes that such power to ignite my brain? To think about something like that. That, is one, and still a big question, which is inside my thought forming these question, those are:

"What is, really called this life itself?"

"What concept that is owned by all the human being to understand the meaning of their lives?"

"Is this life, really beneficial for us?"

"Will this life ends in the end?"

"What are we really doing on this life?"

"Were these entirethings real?"

          Thoughts like them are those which are frequently flying between many of the people beside us that are still confused about the meaning of life. That is, might be enough to run their brains running into those void areas that is unmapped – and then lost because of confusion that is inflicted. That one is might be the ones that we always avoid, but them – the questions – are following and catching with us wherever we run on this earth. We try to jump the vast ocean ahead, but then the questions could also swimming across them and try to catches us continuously.

          Wherever a man thinks, there must be questions that they made, which then they have the tendencies to ask the ones that they think are the answer. Humans are developing, probably quite fast these days, and they start to look over their real identity of themselves, although they are programmed by the world that knows nothing about forgiveness for their soul. And somewhat, we can still survive. That is one and solid evidence that we still have our healthy soul and functional brain inside our head. But now, what is all of that for us? That one good question appears on this life. And, accidentally – or somewhat probably lucky me – appears on my life. But, whom should I share this one good question to? Now I held a long breathe and think about that.

          I don't need to go that far ahead; those questions are surfacing when I started myself as a high school student. That is, just perfectly where people said that this is the time where people start to look at their real identity. Yes, that is the perfect place for us to get infected by bacteria and viruses that contaminates and etches some colors into our soul. There also might be one chance where we are being controlled and dictated by the need and the demand of the society ; or even the companies that try to employ the unaware people, or there might be even the social industries that is getting bigger and stronger to shape and tweak the society.

          We might be saying to ourselves to be us originally, being our own, but then if I try to do some deep research into myself, I found a sign that it is us whom are being controlled and shaped. And it is an unusual occurrence for us to shape ourselves as our own design. That is all because prior to the fact that we are a social living being, which is need one and each other. But then, there also some people that is calm enough to flow on their own stream, without even being affected by the wave of big streams and being pulled or even to be broken because of that.  There are also those that are broken prior to such decision. That decision is to force their own or even affected by the big stream, which gave them desire to join them as a big power. Affected by them, that individual being is stressed out and then start to do some anarchism into the development of the other people's character, and pull them down to be destroyed, that is to compensate their inability and instability of their mental condition that is not strong enough to experience the change on themselves.

          Human need some friends for them, or probably one is also enough. Whatever it is going to be, to share the joy and happiness, or even to share the brokenness one to each other that worsened our image to the entire of the society. The anti-social and the breaching of social norm that I've seen lately, by those I know. That is because of they got some problem, that they are embarrassed, or even afraid to be honest and to admit that it is right. The shadow of their own soul that carved in front of them, are simply disgraced by their own conscience. Then that shadow that is rejected by them as their personal character – the rejection of reality – itself made a conflict out of their mental, which then occurring some of these symptom of mental instability. Which is, by of course causing such chaos and many of the social problems that we could easily found on everyday basis.