One Seen

V. Maggie's Reason

               I saw her, on that parking lot below the orange sky of evening. The sun shine quite brightly, even this is quite late hour for an evening. My eyes are hurt as she stands right below the sunshine point. I keep walking, using my memory and other senses, as because my vision is compromised. The ability to saw things clearly are being disturbed.

               But what is my motivation to keep doing this, friendship? Naïve, I don't have any friend, but despite of what happens and what has been done, I keep walking on and on towards her. The gaze, that she pointed out towards me, it's chilling. That deep gaze of "stay away and turn back" gave me chill over the moment. So then, I ask towards myself, what drives me towards such a bizarre-to-be event. I don't really understand either.

               "Oh hello, good evening" I said. Even so, the gaze don't come off, that is even worse because in a matter of seconds it became glare towards my eye. Giving the message that it won't be her responsibility if I got hurt at the very least.

               "You, what again do you want? Cut the formalities off. We are classmates, remember?" she said unto me. But then, what is the point by that? Cut the formalities off? No, no, I just being nice saying good evening that it is a normal human custom to do so, what is so formal on that anyway?

               "No, I mean just, good evening. It is so rare to see you this late in the evening" I said

               "Same to you, you are pretty late yourself. So then, what is your business? Or are you just drag me to slack off?" said Maggie towards me. Being such a sarcastic, no, it is not even sarcasm. It is just plain frontal words without any masks on it. Plainly speaking, she accuse me to having such an ulterior motives towards her. Do I looks like I have some?

               "Never mind, just being good evening, that's all. No particular business. Oh, but, do you have any free moment after this, or.. "

               Not yet finishes my sentence, she suddenly stop me and said "No, don't have any. Pick another if you want to spend your nonsense act". She said that while then wearing her helmet, and starts to ran off with her bike outside. I guess, how we should call this, a rejection? Well, then there is nothing more to worry about. She is just don' care about me, just like I do towards everyone. That is mutual, and that is good.

               Then I walked slowly towards my bike too. What should I really do to get another – let's say friend or such ... ? I guess I just not cut out for this, but do I really so? Am I really just hopeless to dreaming that someday it will all get better? Is it just my delusional dreams again?

               On her side, her heart is actually throbbing, and the breath are getting faster than normal human does. The beat is fast like a war drum, and that is because of what is done and what is presented. She just reject an offer my – probably – a honest schoolmates that is also her classmates. But, it would be dangerous if she let her guards down. She also have the right to self-defend her existence. Deep inside her heart, she don't really want to shoo him, but what has done, has done. Nothing could rewrite the story, even time can't turn back on its motion. But she is not being honest, she actually has the feeling that Aiz is actually different from the others. But the wound are too deep, and traitors has been born one by one in every seconds human gave birth to another humans. The scars that can't be erased, even the blood has stopped, and the wound are still there inside, and leaving scars of fear inside the mind of its bearer. It is unwise, yet it is necessary act to keep her for the best of both.

               Then the bike goes far over the road, leaving Aiz there without any single clue of why he deserve such a treatment. She indeed, doesn't want to have any friends, that is because nobody cares about her. There are some who are faking it for a reason and many intrigues are inflicted behind. For the very sure, she does not like that kind of thing, and not even the slightest of it. There are some who used to be her mates which is just all the same on the reason as everyone does, they need her skill.