I don't love my wife, I'll never but she's mine only mine. im losing control over my life, my heart and mind it's belongs to her now " - jjk
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Y/N POV :
It's 25th my wedding day. It's not like a usual wedding there's no white dress, no flower girl, no guests no one even comes here just my father coming with me and Mr.jeon and his lawyer... It's don't feel like a wedding at all.
Aera and yuri are so angry that they tried to kill me 2 days ago but this time lucy saved me so they fired her. I'm worried for her I can't even say my last goodbye to her I hope she is ok. Right now there's so many things running on my mind . I don't know what to do . Sometime i look towards Mr. Jeon but his eyes glued on some papers or he's talking to his lawyer.
I'm feeling a flicker of nervousness. Just hoping for a better, I hope this marriage works out and I can live a day without any pain just a happy married life like a normal person. My life was never been normal. just living a miserable union maybe death will finally put an end to this painful life.I just want he don't abuse me like my family , that will be more than enough for me . Now im going to become a lady hope i can satisfy my husband. I'll try my best .
As I sit down in my light blue dress, I felt more hopeful than I had in a long time. Felling kind of nervous as well. Mr. jeon looked sophisticated in his black suit and vest. Honestly, he's the most handsome man I have ever seen in my life. His eyes met mine and never left me.
His eyes are the most beautiful thing ever exist in this world. Rumours about him being heartless and cruller going around in airs I don't know how this beautiful man can be this heartless. There's many women who are dying to be in my place rn . But here I'm. Nothing feels real .
The lawyer told us to sign that paper. There's no priest I thought maybe, at last, we'll say ' i do ' and gonna take our vows but nothing and no kiss as well. After Mr. jeon finished signing those papers he passed me, it was my turn to sign those papers. I wish my mother can able to see this day, I wish she can give me some advice, and blessings, and I wish I can share all my inside thoughts with her. I'm missing her. it's the most important day of my life and I got no one at my side, just no one. I felt a single tear drop leave my eyes when I sign those papers.
Now I'm no more SEO y/n. now I'm jeon y/n. Congratulation to me
After all paperwork, we drove to Mr. jeon's house. This is whole Time he didn't say a single word to me . My father didn't even say a goodbye . He was furious but can't do anything. me and Mr.jeon or should I call him jungkook are now a married couple. He didn't even hold my hand as we entered. It just felt nothing.
" Are you ok ? " he asked in a polite tone but still it's making me nervous.
"....."
" yeah, I'm fine"
" If you feel down you can take a rest in our bedroom. jase will show you the way. "
" Jase? "
" she's our helping hand. if you need anything just ask her. she'll help you ."
" ok "
After some time we get to freshen up. his bedroom is big I can't compare it with mine. But it's really plain. I'm kinda nervous because of this wedding night. he gave Jase and other workers a day off maybe he preferred some privacy for our wedding night. right now my heart beating so fast just thinking about it. I don't know what to do . What if i make him angry.
I m very inexperienced about all those things. I have never been kissed before. what if he gets angry because of this? Yeah, I want to become a real wife. I know he said he never gonna love me but at least I can try maybe I can change those things.
My thoughts were interrupted when Mr.jeon opened the door to the bedroom and came inside. He closed the door and started loosening his tie. Didn't he gonna do something? He headed toward the window and looked outside.
" you can lie down. I'll sleep late tonight and have some work to do. "
" A-are w-we... not g-gonna d-do some-thing...." oh my god I'm ashamed of myself. What I said.hope he didn't listen to it.pls, save me.
He takes a step closer to me " huh what? no just relax and sleep. you're tired and I'm not the kind of man who forced themself towards their wife. You need some time. For now, sleep ." I said and walked out of the room.
He's a good man. I felt relief. I walked up to the bed and slid under the covers. Trying to relax. He's bed is soft. Not like my previous one . After some time i fall into my dreamland. hope the next day will bring a light of happiness to my life.
I'm exhausted from being strong. Pretending everything will be fine. I constantly feel sick. And I don't know how I'll get out of it. I guess it takes time. But how long do I have before I lose myself? The voice in m head doesn't make it any easier either. All I will say is that this life is getting tiring and fast. I just hope I stay afloat before I get pulled down all the way. Mom help me. I need you I miss you.
NEXT MORNING -
Mr.JEON wasn't in the bed when I woke up. His side of the bed was cold, maybe he woke up early, or maybe he didn't sleep here. I lay on my back for a while, staring at the ceiling. Then I slipped out of the bed and headed into the bathroom and started making myself presentable. I choose a floral dress that ended above my knees. I wasn't sure if I was expected downstairs for breakfast.
I didn't know anything about this house. Didn't know the people who worked here. And also I didn't know my husband as well this is the worst. The double doors were ajar and I approached them. I'd expected Mr.jeon to be gone already and surprisingly I found his sitting in the dining room, reading a newspaper but lowered it when he heard me enter.
"G- good morning Mr.jeon "
" morning. I hope you slept well ? " asked in his smooth voice. Still makes me nervous
" yeah, I hope you too " he nodded
" no need to call me Mr. jeon, call me jungkook that will be fine."
" a-ah ok "I whispered.
"I still have a meeting, I told Jase to give you a house tour. and she will keep the company you while I'm on my meeting. If you need anything ask her. "
Jungkook met my gaze, and there was something in them that made me lower my eyes.
" ok, i'll "
" When will you come back ? " I asked
" I'll be late. "
" Um i-if you don't mind can y-you come e-early . "
" Why " he said in a calming voice. He's eyes look direct on my soul .
" S-so w-we can have dinner together"
"I have more important things besides having dinner together. You can eat dinner and sleep no need to wait for me . Or do things kinda things . " he replied looking at my eyes.
I didn't say anything. I felt numb. Why it's hurts.
why waiting for your husband so we can eat dinner together spend some time , Can know each other better is wrong. Maybe he don't like this things .
