stockholm syndrome // h.s

twenty one.

(a.n: I KNOWW this chapter is ALITTLE shorter than normal but tRUST me, the length of this chapter will be the least of your worries... )

Jackie's Point of View

"Harry" I breathed out, breaking the kiss, practically saying the words into his mouth.

Harry moved his lips to my neck before replying, "what?" He mumbled against the sensitive skin of my neck, sending immediate shivers all the way down my spine.

"I...I cant" I whispered nervously, feeling the pressure of Harry's lips against my neck being lifted.

Harry moved his face a small distance away from mine, furrowing his eyebrows in response.

"You can't what?" He questioned me as he set me on the bathroom counter to prevent his arms from getting tired from holding my body weight.

I looked anywhere but Harry's eyes, suddenly feeling insecure and nervous about what I'm about to drop on the eager curly headed boy.

"Im not ready Harry, I'm a virgin." The words practically fell out of my mouth and I immediately felt like a small innocent child sitting in front of him on the bathroom counter.

Harry's features grew completely still, scarily still.

"I'm sorry" I mumbled towards the ground, by this time the the sexual tension between our bodies was non-existent.

"What are you sorry for?" Harry suddenly spoke up, still wearing a blank expression.

"I'm just...I'm sorry that I can't do something for you after you do something for me." I mumbled barely audible, looking anywhere but his eyes.

Harry glanced around the bathroom as he searched for a response, anything.

"You don't owe me anything, Jackie. If anything I'm the one that should be doing something for you. " He replied sternly, dead locking our eyes as he rested his hands on my lower thighs.

He's right. I don't owe him anything, yet for whatever reason I've come to admire everything he is, sometimes even his darker side.

"Okay I admit, that was selfish. I shouldn't have let you gotten that far not knowing if you were ready or not." Harry admitted, slowing reaching for my hand to hold onto.

I reacted by lightly squeezing his hand, reassuring him that it was okay.

"You know how I feel about you, Harry..." I whispered, shaking my head slowly.

I quickly bit my tongue because in that moment It suddenly hit me. He didn't. He doesn't know how I feel about him. I've never told him. Mostly because I wasn't so sure myself.

"No, actually, I don't. You've never mustered up enough courage to tell me exactly how you feel about me." His voice turned slightly harsh as I realized this fact.

My eyes immediately whipped to his and I cautiously pulled my hand away from his grasp.

I suddenly remembered something significant, how can he attack me for this if he hasn't even shared his feelings towards me?

"Oh, because you're so courageous, right? You can't admit to me or even yourself that you have feelings for me!" I shouted in frustration.

He suddenly backed away from my body and his eyes grew dark, darker than I've ever seen them before.

"Maybe I just don't feel anything for you, Jackie! Did that possibly ever cross your mind?" His voice was harsh, evil.

"Then why do you keep kissing me?!" I nearly yelled, scrunching my eyebrows together.

"Because you're convenient! You're here, and you're hot and I'm a teenager! What else did you expect, Jackie? Did you expect us to fall in love and ride off into the sunset together? It was never going to happen! The thought never even crossed my mind!"

I felt my heart drop to my stomach, a feeling like nausea washed over me, I wasn't sure that I could even breathe at that moment.

I wasn't brought up this way, I was taught to stand up to men that hurt me, and that's all Harry's been doing since day one.

Sure, I've hurt him as well...but never this much, I've never gone this far.

Harry continued to toss and throw and stomp my heart until it was broken, and I refused to be broken any longer. So I stood up to face him, feeling my heart begin to harden into ice like his heart was, and I slapped the spit out of his mouth.

a.n: Jackie slapped harry whoop whoop! Girl power ;-)

janah