The Secrets We Keep ( trixya )

Courtney Act

Katya POV

TRixie was in the bathroom and I was standing with Courtney act outside the airport.

" you seem at bit off are you okay?" She asked sweetly.

" yeah no I'm good." I said staring  at my shoes.

" you sure? Did trix say something to upset you?" She asked once again.

" no no just stuff on my mind. She said she might like someone right now. Do you have any idea who she's been hanging out with that could you know be a crush?" I didn't want to sound weird or desperate I was just curious.

" If it was going to be anyone it would most definitely be you Katya. Isn't it obvious?" She said rolling her eyes.

" if your implying what I think you are, your wrong. It's not like that." I retorted.

" alright don't get defensive. It's just you two have really great chemistry and you guys seem more like your dating than friends. But obviously I'm wrong. You don't like her do you?" She asked looking deep into my dark soul.

" I um don't really know- I" I was interrupted by Trixie coming back from the bathroom.

" everything okay." He asked.

" everything's great we were just chatting. Ready to go?" Courtney said answering for me.

Trixie nodded. Noticing I was a bit off he grabbed my hand and held it as we walked to the car. Courtney noticed and winked at me.

Courtney POV

they were idiots. How could they not see the fact that they clearly liked each other. I didn't mean to stress Katya out over it but it was killing me not knowing what she was going to say at the end before Trixie cut her off. I didn't want to push it too much, I figured they would figure it out on their own at some point. Even if it took another 6 years. It was cute to see them holding hands. I swear they have the best friendship to ever come out of drag race. EVER.

Trixie insisted on driving and Katya sat in the passenger seat next to her, while I sat in the back. Everything was going fine until a song came on the radio. It was playing: that way by Tate Macray.

Run me in circles like you always do
Mess with me on purpose, so I'll hang on to you
I know what you mean when you act like that
But you don't know it's breaking my heart
Said that it was just never gonna happen
Then almost kissed me in the dark
Every time we talk, it just hurts so bad
'Cause I don't even know what we are
I don't even know where to start
But I can play the part
We say we're friends, but I'm catching you across the room
It makes no sense 'cause we're fighting over what we do
And there's no way that I'll end up being with you
But friends don't look at friends that way
Friends don't look at friends that way

Trixie swerved hard before hitting the off button quick. " I hate that song." She said indignantly. Katya just stared at her longingly. Weirdos.

Katya POV

wow that song really hit home.

Trixie POV

That song was feeling a little too relatable. I quickly tuned it off but not after swerving into traffic.

" anyway.. we're almost there!" I said changing the subject

" thank god. Trixie you are an awful driver" Courtney said jokingly.

" I was just um, startled that's all." I said.

" by what the birds?" Katya asked laughing. She was looking at me looking just as confused as Courtney. Did she not feel what I did?

" no no I just have bad memories from that song. Just stuff from the past." I said desperately trying to change the subject.

"Mhmm so you've been in love with a friend before? Tell us more about that would you?" Courtney asked. My heart dropped on my throat. I hit the gas  little harder than usual in an attempt to get us to Courtney's place faster.

" umm well I don't know I-I" I stuttered which wasn't at all like me.

" wow okay" Katya said looking confused.

Oh god did I offend her. Does she think I Don't like her? Because I do. I think. She turned her gaze to the window.

" now I regret asking anything at all. I shouldn't have pushed the two of you. Sorry" Courtney said innocently.

Katya snapped her head around.

" court I think your making it worse" she said.

Thankfully i pulled into the driveway of Courtney's house before anything else could be said.

Katya POV

I was super thankful when Trixie finally pulled into the driveway. Courtney must be pretty lonely if she was going to try so hard to ship us. I mean really? It's never going to happen.

Courtney's house is nice. It's mansion much like Trixies but hers is less pink. When we got out of the car I privately walked up to trix and whispered in her ear.

" you can tell me the juicy tea about that song later" She smiled at me sadly and gave my hand a small squeeze.

We settled on the couch with some snacks and began to watch a movie. Me and Trixie were cuddled together on the sofa and Courtney was sitting off to the side. We ate popcorn and had snacks. After a few hours me and Trixie decided to leave and head home. We had to film UNHHH tomorrow and we wanted to save all our good material for the cameras. Also we had had an absolutely exhausting past few days. Mentally and physically.

Courtney showed us out, just as our Ubers showed up.

" you know you can tell me anything!" I blurted just as he was about to get in.

" what the hell are you talking about" he laughed that bird call laugh he always does.

" brain if you like someone I wish you would just tell me. It won't change anything between us I promise. I'll even get to know whoever it is you like. You know I won't be mean" I said pleading. I couldn't live knowing he had a secret.

" it would change things though. I don't feel ready to talk about. It has nothing to do with you. Your my best friend you know I trust you." With that he got in his Uber and off he went. Mine pulled up seconds later.

On the ride back to my apartment all I could think about was the words best friend. I wasn't feeling sure that those words were the right ones to describe us. We were more than friends but less than lovers. Brian had always had boyfriends in the past but I was never so lucky. But no matter what we could always rely on each other. Right now it felt like we were hiding things from each other and I didn't like that one bit.

I went to bed that night with a heavy heart.