The Secrets We Keep ( trixya )

Dont Call

1 Month Later

Katya POV
Me and Trixie were sitting in my dressing room in between episodes. We were back to filming UNHHH which was really exiting. I was sitting on the counter and Trixie was standing between my legs helping touch up my makeup. I loved being a couple, I finally felt comfortable and relaxed in our relashionship. We didn't tell Pete Ron or any of our friends. We were just happy being us and not having anyone else know about it. It was great.

TRIXIE POV

Katya was sitting on the counter and I was standing between her legs. She was so beautiful sitting there. I carefully rested one of my hands on her thigh while the other worked to touch up her makeup. I felt like an idiot for not making my feelings clear from the start. I really love being with Katya and it hurts to think about the time I wasted worrying if she would feel the same.  I leaned up and gave her a small kiss on the cheek not wanting to ruin her red lipstick. She looked down at me and smiled before reaching out and wrapping her arms around my neck. Me katyas relashionship was weird in a sense. Neither of us wanted anyone to know we were in a relashionship but we went exactly hiding it either.

AUTHORS POV

Pete and Ron sat in the studio and looked through video footage together.

" do you think somethings going on between them?" Pete asked " like is there something their not telling us?" Rubbing his chin

" probably but I'm just letting them have some space. Let them do their thing" Ron said uninterested.

" wait! See right there!" Pete said rewinding the footage. " see Trixie was talking about crushes and Katya winked. She winked!" Ron looked closely.

" that could mean literally anything." Ron stated in amused.

" oh yeah? I dare you to go have a peak in katyas dressing room."

Ron got up and slowly cracked the door so he was unnoticed. His eyes widened. There was Katya sitting on the counter with her arms wrapped around Trixie. They were hugging and talking casually. He slowly walked back to Pete.

" yeah their probably not friends" Pete threw his arms in the air.

" see! I'm right. I'm not going to call them out or anything, I'll give them their privacy but there is 100% something going on." Ron nodded in agreement. They wouldn't bring it up thy would them them do their thing.

KATYA POV

We walked into the filming area and greeted Pete and Ron. They were giving us a really weird look.

" what did we do? Why are you looking at us like that?" Trixie said picking up on the vibe

" oh no nothing Just zoned out" Pete said. Wasn't buying it.

"Okay then weirdo's can we start?" I said sitting on my stool.

Later.....

We finished filming and we're on our way home when Trixie stopped me.

" I have a gig tonight so don't call me between 8-10 pm. Okay?" She asked looking into my eyes.

" of course I know the drill." I responded. Whenever we had a gig we made sure not to call eacother. Sometimes are phones would be hooked up to the stereo in order to play our music. You don't want to have a call come through while your in the middle of performing read u wrote u.

We said our goodbyes and headed home.

TRIXIES POV

it was 9 pm and I was waiting in the wings to go on stage when my phone buzzed. It was Katya. Frustrated that she was calling when I asked her not to I put on do not disturb.

Later....

I was exhausted. The show was finally over and I was sitting in my dressing room when I remembered Katya.

12 missed calls

Shit. Shit. Shit. It was important and I had put her on do not disturb like a fucking idiot. I put a recovering drug addict on do no not disturb.

I clicked on the most recent voicemail.

" trix...... it doesn't sound like your going to pick up but I really need you. I really need you. I'm sitting on the floor in my bathroom. Which you would know if you listen to my previous voicemails. I'm starting at this bottle of Advil and I just..... it's so hard and I need somebody and I feel so alone and I don't know what to do....... I don't know what to do. Anyway. I hope you pick up next time.... Bye"

Fuck. That was bad. I got in my car still in full drag and drove to katyas house. All this was feeling way to familiar.

I fumbled my key in the lock before walking into the apartment. I was expecting to find her in the bathroom but instead she was crumpled in a ball on the kitchen floor crying.

" oh kitty, I'm so so sorry." I pleaded. She was still in full drag from earlier.

" I didn't take anything." She whimpered. " trix can you just come closer?" She asked. Mascara smudged down her cheeks.

I didn't say anything I just sat on the floor beside her.

"I meant closer" she said again.

" ohhh you want me to cuddle you" I nodded figuring it out. I scooted closer and wrapped my arms around her and squeezed lightly.

"I almost did it trix." She cried into my arms.

" okay here what I think-k" I stopped mid scentance and looked down. Katyas west was bleeding out badly.

" oh...kat" I sighed. " why don't I fix that cut up and put you to bed. Then tomorrow I think you should pack up and come stay with me for a while. I don't think you should be alone right now.

" I agree." She said. Her tears had died down a little.

We stood up and I gently took her arm. She winced. It didn't look deep enough for stitches.

" you know I don't think you've fully acknowledged the fact that you have severe mental health issues." I stated plainly

" I do" she said.

" teach but you joke about it on the show all the time like your fine. But your not fine." She nodded he head agreeing.

That evening I climbed in bed with her without question. She snuggled into me which made me smile.

" I love you trix. Thankyou for once again saving me"she said laughing a little now.

" love you. I'd do anything for you."