The Secrets We Keep ( trixya )

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For new readers I would like to remind that out of drag I use boy names and in drag girl names. Forgive me if I forget in some chapters I try my best.

Katya POV

It was the middle of the night when I heard the knock on my door. Who the hell was at my door at this fucking time. I hadn't slept in what felt like forever and I was full on ready to loose my shit at whoever was on the other side of the door until I saw who it was. There in my doorway stood Trixie Mattel, Brian Firkus.

"Hi" I whispered feeling my anger melt away.

" hey" he said smiling at me.

" what the hell are you doing here trix? It's like 1 am." I asked concerned.

" oh my god it's so embarrassing. I was feeling lonely and I remembered whe-w" I cut him off hushing him.

" say no more Tracy come on in" I said.

" Thankyou I know it's late and that I'm bugging you with all this secret shit." He said looking saddens that he was keeping something from me.

" you don't have to worry about all that right now." I said. " come on you can't sleep with me in my bed if your okay with that." I said assuming he would say yes. Which he did.

He crawled in next to me and I smiled to myself at how cute he was. Hold fuck these feelings needed to go away.

TRIXIE POV

I climbed in bet with Katya/Brian feeling the comfort I had felt not so many nights ago. I didn't want to ask to cuddle because it would be weird. I didn't expect it I mean I was already intruding at 1 am to ask to get in bed with him. And on top of that I was going to embarrassingly ask to cuddle? No fucking way. If it happens great. If it doesn't great. I turned on my side so I was facing away from him. I didn't want to seem desperate or anything. Just as I was falling asleep I felt arms wrap around me from behind.

Were we fucking spooning? My stomach filled with butterflies even though I knew it shouldn't.

" love you bri" I said smiling

" Love you Tracy. Your a really great friend." He responded snuggling in deeper n

Friend?

KATYA POV

it was morning and Trixie and me were sitting in drag at the kitchen island having breakfast.

" I swear I gave you a key. I'll have to get you one." I said as I poked around my cereal.

" oh my god no I don't need a key! How do you know I'm not going to murder you I'm your sleep?" She asked laughing hysterically.

" I'm pretty sure you won't but if you do I'd be quite happy to be killed by you. And yes you most certainly need a key." I said laughing at her crazy laugh.

" Thankyou again for real, you know for everything." She said more seriously this time.

" no. After everything I've put you through these past years and all you've forgiven me for it's the least I could do. Honestly." I said trembling at the memory.

She reached out and touched my hand softly.
" we don't talk about that. It never happens as far as I'm concerned" she said remembering everything I'd done to her hurt. I can't believe I still had her as a friend after all of it. I shook my head forgetting the thoughts. They weren't important now.

We arrived at the studio in the afternoon. Me and Trixie arrived together if course because we had spent the night together. Trixie went to go touch up her makeup and I walked onto set to talk to Pete and Ron.