I Had a Dream Last Night

Dream #17

Dream #17

"I'm not crazy," I assured Layra for the fifth time.

She sighed for the fifth time and adjusted her glasses. She was talking to me as if I were insane. I'm not!

"No one is saying you're crazy, Kei. Calm down and tell me what happened in your dream," she yawned patiently.

When I looked at the wall clock in her office, it was already five o'clock in the morning. I remembered what had happened prior to my dream. I skipped the pill, and it worked for the second time. I had a dream about Kaiden, but it was unlike any other dream I'd had about him.

After my mother and Layra brought me to her office so early, I had already calmed down. I kept crying and sobbing, but I eventually stopped. I'm so exhausted that I'm afraid if I cry too much again, I'll collapse.

But thinking about the dream makes me want to cry again. It keeps playing in my head and I can't make it stop!

"Did you skip the pill, Kei?"

I didn't respond. It's clear I skipped the pill! I wouldn't have dreamed about Kaiden if I hadn't.

I'm hoping that was just a dream. I'm hoping to dream of him again soon... I hope La Mercia is all right, and I hope Kaiden is alive.

"You should speak up, Kei. Let's not waste each other's time here. I haven't had breakfast."

I raised my head and locked my gaze on her. I was also hungry, having awoken at four a.m. from a nightmare. Mom called Layra right away because she didn't know what to do with me and I was almost throwing tantrums.

"All right, I'll tell you everything... But let's eat breakfast first," I suggested, and she nodded and smiled.

We returned to her office after finishing breakfast, and as I sat in her office's comfortable chair, I sighed and looked around the room.

"I hope you don't leave anything out, but I understand if you do. Tell me everything, Kei. I understand what you're going through."

"Remember Kaiden?" I asked, not looking at her. Looking at her will cause me to overshare, so I'll just say the basics of the dream.

I continued speaking despite seeing her nod in my peripheral vision.

"I admit it, I skipped the pill. It wasn't my fault, she never fails to give me the pill every night and watch me swallow it, but I didn't swallow it. I let it stay on my tongue until she left and spit it out. I wanted to dream about Kaiden again. I feel so empty... I didn't skip it just once, it took me two pills to finally dream of Kaiden again."

I couldn't bear looking at her. I'm sure she'll make judgements on me because of it. I was so desperate to do that...

"Now I wish I hadn't skipped the pill..." I grumbled, my heart pounding even harder just thinking about what I had dreamed about.

"In my dream, La Mercia was a complete mess. All the flowers died, the mansion was crumbling and lightning kept striking it, and Kaiden and I were just lying in the grass, not caring what was going on around us. Worse, he grew weaker with each passing minute, and he looks terrible!"

I didn't mind her saying, "Hmm..." and scribbling something in her notebook.

I combed my already unkempt hair with my hand. I drew it a little to express my annoyance.

"He keeps saying he'll just sleep, and I can wake him up after I've done everything I needed to do even before I met him!"

Layra asked, "What do you need to do?"