Haikyuu!! One-shots

~Takanobu Aone-it's done now~

A: This is more for personal needs, but I thought I'd post it anyway. I am so sorry if you relate to this tho. And I hope you find the love you deserve. Please enjoy. <333333

!Warnings!: talk of suicide, self-depreciative thoughts, bullying, name calling, suicide, eating disorder (starving), angst

If any of this makes you uncomfortable DO NOT READ, watch out for yourself.

Words:2,000

Prompt: you are a bigger person. Always have been. But during high school it got worse. Aone tries to help you, but your thoughts get in the way. Resulting in a decision you cannot come back from.

Aone x fem! ed! suicidal! reader

Warnings mentioned start after the cut

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You sat outside the school again. Avoiding the cafeteria again. Why was it every day? Why couldn't you just be as pretty as everyone else. As skinny. You craved and yearned for someone to think you were beautiful.

You stared at the barley clouded blue sky. You struggled to lift your thighs to your chest, tightly wrapping your arms around your knees trying to hold them in place. But after a bit of struggling to keep your hands from slipping. You just stop altogether. You drop your legs to the concrete. They make a loud smack against the surface.

You cringe at the loud sound, looking around for any people to judge you. And there weren't thankfully, but that didn't stop you from being your biggest critic.

You sat outside the school waiting for the hunger to go away. Hoping it would go quickly. But you knew it wouldn't. It hadn't for the past week you hadn't eat.

You sometimes wondered how long it would be until you couldn't feel anything anymore.

You fiddled with the fabric of your skirt trying to put off the feeling of hunger dancing through your body.

You heard the doors open and you peeked your head around the corner to see who it was. And to your dismay a tall fair-haired man walked out into the courtyard. He was looking for you and you knew it.

You were a manager of the Date Tech Volleyball Team and you normally sat with the intimidating male at lunch but stopped for obvious reasons. You were too fat to sit with such well-built guys. Especially one you liked. Aone was too good, and you knew it. So, you decided to shove your hopes to the very back of your mind.

You hide behind the wall when you figured out Aone was trying to find you. You hoped he wouldn't find you.

But it was inevitable. You heard his footsteps draw closer.

" L/N" his voice is soft. Not very many people hear him talk. And his voice says that it's quiet and calming.

" Oh hey, Aone" you say his name as though you haven't avoided him and pretty much the whole ten this entire week.

" Why are you out here?" He asked. It was a very plain statement. You should've been able to answer quick. A quick simple ' oh I wanted fresh air', but even that was hard.

" Oh, umm I wanted fresh air" you said pausing before every word to think of the one after. The look on his features never changes, but his pupils dilate just a little. No one ever noticed. But you did.

" Everyday?" Aone questions a brow quirked.

You nod slowly feeling bad for lying to not only him but the whole team. " I've, been feeling nauseous at the smell of food lately. I don't know, maybe I have a stomach problem or something." You try to excuse the dumb earlier excuse with another one.