I still remember. Do You? ꒰ა yoonmin ໒꒱

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" Hyu- Yoongi tell me do you still remember? "

He puts his hands on the collar of Yoongi's shirt, gently grabbing it between his trembling fingers. Jimin shakes him with the power that he has left in him. He feels so light headed right now.

" Was me and m-my child so easy to forget ?"

He breaths out all the air from his lungs. He feels weird to finally address the issue, it feels weird to finally admit these words that he before was trying so hard to forget.

When his heartbeat gets too loud, he starts to break down. He feels so weak that his body starts to slump to the ground. But Yoongi managed to put his hands around Jimin's waist and help him before he could fall to the ground.

He slowly help Jimin get down on the floor before kneeling down himself, right next to him.

Yoongi wraps his arm around Jimin in a side hug, and he keeps it there on his back to make him feel he's there for him.

" Do you not remember about our child Yoongi ?"

He looks at Yoongi with that desperate look in his eyes. He just wants Yoongi to tell him that he remembers. That's all he wants to hear right now. A simple sentence like that would calm his bursting heart.

At least then he wouldn't feel like he's the only one stuck in this gruesome past.

" The child that we were so excited to have? "

He cries loudly as he talks about his child. It breaks his heart to open the old wounds. But he needs to open them so they could heal. It'll only hurt him more if he just let them be, the scar would get deeper and deeper. And it'd make his life more miserable than it actually is.

" The child that you made a crib for? The child you brought clothes and toys for."

It hurts him more when he starts to get flashback of Yoongi being so excited while showing him the clothes and shoes he have bought for their baby.

Was it easy for Yoongi to move on from those moments? The moments when they both built the crib together, the moments where they shopped for their baby together. Was it so easy for Yoongi to forget?

The happiness that they experienced, the joy of becoming parents, the excitement that came with it and the pain... did Yoongi forget about it all ?

" The child that was going to be o-our family."

His own family, that's the only thing that Jimin wished for. Yet that's the only thing the heavens didn't give him. That's the only thing he could never have.

He hates the word 'almost' the most in this world, because he almost had his child in his arms, he and Yoongi almost became parents. Their lives were almost perfect... This almost... It ruined everything.

" The child that-"

He choked on a sob and let out a little scream. Even completing his own sentence breaks his heart. He never wishes to admit it himself but he have to. In need to move on he needs to deal with all his past and the pain that came with it.

He have to face the agony to be able to smile again.

" - that n-never came into this world."

He starts to cry frantically, as if the ferocity of it might bring his child back; as if by the sheer force of his grief the news would be undone.

It hurts him to even think about that time again and what he went through. The time he lost his child, his and Yoongi's child.

The time his life came crushing down, the time his life went downhill. The moment his future became blurry. And he lost his child and his lover on the same day.