confession letter ; taegyu

13

yeah, maybe never at all.

beomgyu is still on his room with his blank mind. after some thoughts and what if's, beomgyu decided to finally stop trying to confess to taehyun. if we're really meant to be, then let it be. if we're not, then we're not. plus, beomgyu is still not ready for what will happen after he confess. what if taehyun likes him too? don't get him wrong but, he would be on cloud nine if that ever happened but he's still not ready for commitment. he paused for a moment and thought about exactly why does he want to confess so bad. i just want him to have even a tiny weeny bit clue of my feelings for him...

beomgyu pouted, he gave up. he's just going to keep this unrequited feelings to himself.

wanting some fresh air, beomgyu got up from his bed and grabbed a sweater and his keys. he decided to have some late night walks to free his mind from these thoughts inside his head and all.

beomgyu fixed himself and looked at the mirror, posing in front of it as if there's a lot of people who's going to check him out at this hour. he then locked the door and walked outside.

beomgyu slowly walked a few blocks away from his house, appreciating his surroundings, until he reached his favorite spot whenever he's walking late at night.

beomgyu missed this. the fresh smell of air breeze, the peaceful quietness and the view. the beautiful view where all the buildings lit up and looked like a tiny stars shining oh so brightly. he used to do this back then, late night walks and all but college is a bitch so he doesn't have enough time to spend for his night walks. thankfully, tonight was an exception. beomgyu really did finished all of his activities eagerly earlier so he can have some free time and peace of mind tonight.

beomgyu sat on a bench and proceed to watch the amusing view in front of him, calming his mind and inner peace. he closed his eyes for a while and inhaled the very fresh and natural breeze of air, he smiled, getting lost at the scent.

"oh? didn't know that i'd meet someone here at this hour."

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there's a room

in my heart with the memories we made

took 'em down but they're still in their frames

there's no way I could ever forget, hmm

beomgyu sang along, slowing down his pace to match taehyun's. the two are currently walking around while sharing the same earphone.

taehyun turned to the older and asked, "what brings you here, hyung? roaming around at night?"

beomgyu chuckled, "nothing i guess, just want to clear things off my mind. something's bothering me lately, really. how 'bout you?"

"oh about that... let's just say that i suddenly fell in love with the view from here. i found this place last night when i got home from the pet store." taehyun replied, smiling lightly.

beomgyu hummed and nodded. there was silence until taehyun decided to speak up.

"by the way hyung, what's been bothering you lately, you say? you know that you can tell me anything, i'll listen." the younger spoke while turning off the music, unplugging the earphone from his phone.

oh my god? is this it? , beomgyu thought.

"oh, uh yeah. i d-don't know if this is such a big deal or i'm just overreacting but, there's this guy, that i like. i really like him so much, to the point that i would give him my everything..."

oh. taehyun felt something heavy on his chest but that's not really important right now, he wants beomgyu to feel okay and help him with his thoughts and feeling. taehyun just hummed and kept on listening.

"i've been planning to confess to him about my feelings, but it's just- there's something that's holding me back. like, i can't even do it on my own... i still need to tell soobin hyung about it and ask for some help, i feel so childish and stupid. i don't even know if this guy feels the same way, i hate it so much and that's what's frustrating me lately. i mean, i'm doing my best to keep my cool whenever he's around, the way i act towards him... is he numb?! last time i checked, he's very smart but guess what taehyun... i think he's not. or maybe he's just pretending..? to not care about how i feel? he should stop giving me mixed signals if he doesn't like me... i'm mentally tired from all of it. just because of a stupid crush" beomgyu rants out.

"i just want him to maybe care? and acknowledge my feelings towards him... this is all so tiring, shit", he added.

beomgyu finished his crying with a fake laugh, while the younger just stare at him. i didn't know that beomgyu have this kind of side of him...

"hyung, that is not overreacting and that's literally normal since it's what and how you are feeling. and thank you for opening up to me, i had no idea that you've been crushing this hard on someone... guess i'm not your best friend at all." taehyun joked, trying to ease the tension. let's say that it worked since beomgyu laughed a little while playfully smacked the other's arms.

"yeah, you're that guy afterall." beomgyu mumbled, thankful that taehyun didn't catch his tiny words.

"hm?"

"nothinggg. let's go back to our places now, it's getting late."

[ a/n : theeere, here's a new chapter for y'all! btw i wanna say sorry bcs i promised to write longer chapter than the last one but this is still short so um,, yeah. i'm rlly sorry, i think i'm not capable of writing a chapter that has 2000 words or more 😅 ]