Hackers

Its Time

After following them to Purdys, we managed to hide and not get spotted by anyone.

"We need to get disguises." Carter demands. "Otherwise they are gonna spot us sooner or later."

"Definitely," I reply. "But we could loose them..."

"Girl, look at them," Carter points out. "They look pitiful, it's not gonna be hard to spot them."

I take another look at the sad couple. They really are pitiful. Hughes is just so into the mission and so dense to Haruka's feelings that are completely obvious. I let out another deep sigh.

"Let's go buy some stuff." I say and grab Carter's hand to drag him away into Ardene's.

When I finally manage to push the surprisingly strong boy into the 'girly' shop he breaks down.

His eye start to fill with tears, and as he sobs I can see all the suffering pouring out of him.

I don't know what to say. I've never dealt with anything like this before. All I can think of to say is; "What's wrong? Are you okay?" But I know, obviously nothing is okay. Carter was hiding something, for a long time. And he really couldn't handle it anymore. When I look him strait into his tear filled eyes, I can feel the pain he feels. Though I don't understand what is causing the pain.

"It's nothing..." Carter manages to sob out as he causes a seen. Many girls around us in the shop are now staring at us in their mascara covered eyes and Kylie Jenner lips pouting since they see such a hot guy crying his eyes out, possibly thinking I broke up with him there and wishing they were is 'loyal' girlfriend.

I roll my eyes at him because duh, he is not okay at all, this isn't nothing. I wrap my arm around his shoulders and rush him out of the store. I push him down onto the bench in the middle of the crowded hall of the shopping mall and lightly push his head up to look at me.

"Now, tell me what's wrong." I tell him sternly. "I can't help you if you don't tell me what's happened."

He wipes away some tears with his sleeve.

"It's Hughes." he says hoarsely.

I tilt my head to the side confused. "What about Hughes?"

He looks back down at the ground and I notice his face heat up.

"Oh." I sigh. "I see."

"Do you get it?" Carter whimpers out, his brown eyes red and puffy from crying. "I-"

"You don't have to say it." I cut him off harshly.

"What? But-"

"No, don't say it. I don't have time for this whining and crying, we have a mission. That's my only concern." I turn away from Carter because I feel my own eyes filling with tears.

"Please don't cut me off, Eleanor." Carter said a little impatiently. "Just a few moments ago you didn't care about the mission, you cared about getting Hughes and Haruka together. What's up now? Do you not approve of me anymore? Just because you found out I'm-"

"Don't say it!" I shout louder than I expected. The girls from Ardene's were peaking out of the store staring at us. "It'll make it worse."

"I thought you were different. I thought you would understand. You wanted me to tell you. To help me! So I did!" Carter said more firmly, but not yelling. This moment somewhat reminded me of a few weeks back when we first fought. He asked me why I couldn't vent like the others. Well, that's because I'm not like the others. I can't show how I feel, I've built up my wall too high for me even to break down. And it's not that i'm homophobic, I would help Carter about Hughes if I could... but I can't and that's because of one reason.

"Why do you have to yell?" he asks me more calmly. "I shouldn't have yelled back... but why? Why can't you just help me? Don't you know the pain of someone not loving you back? Look at Hughes and tell me he doesn't like Haruka, tell me he likes me instead."

"I already know that feeling too well." I look back at him and the tears are now rushing down my face. "First it was Ryder, then I finally found Levi but... It was too late for him and when I never thought I could ever fall in love with someone ever again, let alone talk to anybody... you came along and tried. You tried to free me... But not because you loved me back. Because you are you and that's just part of your character. Programmed."

I turn around and start to run away from him but he quickly catches up to me and grabs my arm tightly. I don't bother to look back at him.

"Let. Go." I hiss at him.

Then without a moment hesitation, I felt his hand loosen and finally let go. I start to run again. This time nobody went to grab my arm. Nobody said anything. But the moment I felt his hand let go of me... I felt my walls built up again.

Authors Blah: to whom ever it may concern... this was a shorted chapter i must admit but hey, at least i got it back up on time! what do you guys think? pleeease give me feed back! and sorry for making Carter and Lena fight again... I couldn't really think of a way to get it out, for a while, well practically the moment I made Hughes I planned for Carter to fall for him and idk, I didn't know how to incorporate that into the story... and I felt that i've been dragging on the story so what better reason than have another fight! god, I'm becoming a troll author....

P.S. sorry for tipping Lena and Carter's possible ship!