Hackers

The Truth

As Carter held my hand it came to me that I wasn't okay with him liking Hughes. Not that I am homophobic but I like Carter and even though in all those shojo anime the characters are like "I just want them to be happy" but the truth is is that's all a lie. Sometimes you have to be greedy, and me being an extremely greedy person will act on their greed. I want him to be happy but not with Hughes. Hughes had Haruka...

"Listen.... Carter..." I mumbled.

"Oh, yeah? Are you okay?" he asked with concern in his voice.

I felt my face heat up as his eyes stared into mine.

"Watashi wa anatagasuki." (I like you.) I blushed.

"Watashi mo anatagasuki." (I like you too.) he said back. His accent was perfect and his reply even better. My heart skipped a beat as he smiled and his eyes lit up.

"You understood what I said?"

"Yep. You aren't the only one that watches anime." he smirked. Lord, my heart just melted then.

"But... I meant it, like... Not as a friend."

"Mhm."

"What did you mean then?" my eyes turned to the floor and I let go of his hand.

"Well, I mean I like you as you. And though you know I like Hughes. The thing is I like you." his face heated up too. "I know this sounds confusing but it's just me. And I don't know, maybe I'm bi. The one thing I do know is that the moment I met you, I knew you were going to be interesting. And as we talked I guess I sorta fell for you. But I've liked Hughes for as long as I can remember."

"I get it."

"You do??

"I'll be your friend until you understand. I'll wait for you."

"You don't have to do that, Lena."

"Well I want to."

At this point I was full of determination. I wanted him to know how I felt. And though it wasn't as perfect as I imagined it, it was reality. And I would just have to learn to deal with it.

"I want to have lots of adventures with you, Carter." I said, no longer afraid to look him in the eyes. "but I don't want to get hurt again, nor do I want you to get hurt... So... Come and find me if you ever want me because I'll keep my heart free for you."

My eyes started to flood with tears and my hand were trembling.

"Goodbye, Carter."

With that I rushed off before he could say another word. It's true that if I stayed things could've gotten better but I've never been good at thinking about the future. I could've be in so many adventures with him, Hughes and Haruka, he could've eventually fallen for me, I could've gotten to know them and we could've been life long friends. All these what ifs.

But the thing is I didn't. I ran away. Hoping that someone would come to find me.

They never did, Carter never did. I lived my life in solitude until the day I died of old age.

I never fell in love again.

God, I miss that feeling.

Authors blah: heyyyy to whom ever it may concern! So Stargirl188 finally updated her story so I figured I should finish mine. I'm sorry it's so rushed but I felt like the story wasn't really "flowing" properly so I ended it. I hoped that we could've had more better adventures with Lena and Carter but I guess it wasn't meant to be. I might write another story with these two characters. Till we meet again.