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I wish that heaven had visiting hours

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I have a wish.

Do you know what it is?

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Actually, I have many more, hidden behind mountain of desires and dreams. Those wishes were impossible to even be grant. Childish it may seems, but it is part of who I am. Part of the Min Yoon Gi you used to know.

Well, about my wish. It's about seeing you again, but in a different way. Instead of you visiting me, I'll do it for you. If God allows it.

That is, if there's a God.

I should stop right here. I should stop questioning His existence. It only brings pain that only He could heal.

It's spring now. Little dots of pink littered the air, marking every destination I look. The fragrance of cherry blossom fills my lungs. You and I were inside of a restaurant, talking and eating while watching the occurence of spring around us. For sure, you must have been so delighted to see such phenomena.

It's been years since you witnessed spring. You told me you've been away for too long, working overseas to support your parents and handicapped brother.

But now that you're alone, you chose to stay, and be with me.

"Gosh, look at all those pink flowers slowly falling from their branches." You stated, putting your hand under your chin. "So pretty."

Suddenly, your tone dropped.

"Yet so sad."

All the while you said those words, I'm staring at you, marvelling on your beauty. I can't get enough of it everytime I look at you.

"Yoongi..."

I snapped out of my fantasy land. In reply, I hummed.

"Hm?"

You tore your gaze outside the window to my eyes. Your lips curving upward.

"If spring passes and I'm not at your side anymore, will you be alright?"

The seriousness in your voice hit me, like a truck. The heaviness weighed me down, crushing me completely inside. Were you always that harsh?

You always have the ability to swoop me up my feet. But there are instances that you can throw me away into the pit of depression. Why do you kept doing that, my love. Do you really love me?

"What are you talking about?".

I gulped, hoping your answer will lighten up my mood or lift me up to the clouds.

But you never did.

"Let's face the truth. You know my condition, right? You  also heard the doctor's prescription. Only 3% of people can survive this disease.", you frankly said, crushing every hopes I stored for so many nights.

"But you said you'll fight it, right? You promised." My voice shaked uncontrollably, tears threatening to flow.

The look on your face became hopeless. Like you're saying that you don't have a choice.

Your health at that time slowly began to decrease. Because of the d*mn sickness you inherited from your parents. The sickness I would never mention it's name again.

All I ever did was to cry at night, not knowing that maybe you're also suffering. That maybe your heart broke much more than mine. I was selfish, aren't I?

But I swear, I changed. Only it's too late to do that. I'm a horrible boyfriend.

"I'll do my best to overcome this, love. I'll do my best for you."

Light came back to me. At an instant, the dread dissapeared. I held your hand, caressing it gently, saying the words I want to say again to you.

"Throughout your fight, remember that I'm here for you, my prince. I'm your knight-in-shining-armor, ready to risk everything for you."

Let me ask you this, love.

I did my promise, right? I accompanied you on your short journey, right?

No one's POV

A small voice echoed across Yoongi's mind, saying those 3 words he's been longing to hear for the past 9 years.

Yes, you did.

Yoongi widened his eyes, shock and sudden happiness surging inside his body. He put his hands above his chest, feeling the tiny drumming of his heartbeat.

"Is that you, my love?"

He silently asked, glancing up and down his surroundings.

As he did, a tiny butterfly flew and landed on his free hand, it's colored wings fluttering.

Once again, he felt the warmth of someone embracing him. The warmth of that special someone.

"You came back." Yoongi managed to say, his words being interrupted by his sobs.

Out of the blue, another voice spoke to him. This time, it's more clear.

I never left.

Smiling, Yoongi held his pen. Earlier, his mind got emptied due to his huge headache. Now that the buttefly appeared, words kept coming back, waiting to be written in his empty diary.

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Even if it's been so long, you kept finding ways to keep me happy. You're making sure that the path I'll take is the road to acceptance.

They're right.

Moving on is the way to completely heal from all the scars left on your heart.

But in order to do so...

I need to hold on to you for a little longer. No matter how much pain I have to endure.

You know why?

Because you're the only cure I know.

The only one who can save me from these misery. Even though you're the cause of it.