Random.Reality.Rants

R.R.R. #11

Here I am again. Ranting.

Somehow I'm glad that I had the excuse not to be surrounded by people celebrating something that obviously only matters to those who want to have a few good shots and a couple of good words to define their summer.

I am on scape mode.

I want to stay where I am...far...so the fear won't materialize.

I don't want to confront the inevitable. I can't.

Life's ironies are hitting me like bullets from a firing squad.

I came all the way to such a high place only to find one of the most precious jewel I have sinking deeper and deeper into the ground. Not even my stature can save him now. And that's what pisses me off even more. The fact that I can do nothing.

It's been weeks since I last spoke to him..since I last heard his voice. It was scary enough to see him in such state. But now that even his mind starts drifting away as well scares me even more.

I am scared. I am angry. I am frustrated. I am desperate.

I don't know about bigger and better plans. I don't know about reasons behind why things are happening. All I am sure of is that this will be a very difficult year for us...

My childhood ended...when this year started. I can't even remember the last time I genuinely smiled...