Do Not Look At Me, See Me

Chapter 6

I wake up of someone throwing rocks at my window. Or I wasn't really asleep, really. I was half drifting to sleep. But now I'm fully awake again. I have a strong suspicion of who it might be. I stand up and put the covers neatly to the way they were earlier. I look outside and I immediately find Eileen standing outside, faced upwards, towards me. We get eye contact and a smile creeps on my lips. I hate myself for it. I step outside on the terrace and wave at her. She waves at me to come down to her. I do that.

"Hi." Is the only thing she says when I come to her.

"I hope it's something important to wake me up in the middle of the night." I say to her and raise my chin so she feels smaller.

"I didn't do that. You weren't asleep and we both know it." She says looking down the street. I start to walk to the beach, or the abandoned house. I'm walking toward both of them.

"Can't argue with that." I say to her. She sighs and looks down at her moving feet.

"I hate how I feel." She mumbles. I can hear her pretty damn clear anyway.

"Why?" I say, looking down at her meeting my stare.

"I hate how I feel after I've done absolutely nothing good at all." She says, not breaking eye contact. It was nearly a whisper.

"Well, then we have to do something so you can feel better, right?" I say to her and smile. She looks at me like I'm not understanding her, I am. "Look, I also feel awful if I don't do anything good that day or that week. Like if I don't train or that I don't do my homework. But this is something else. We have to do something because if we don't, our 'beloved ones' are going to die. Just because we were lazy. But think of it this way; we have plenty of time. It's one day away from the bloodbath. If they're lucky they won't die then. If they do then we don't have to do anything. If they don't we probably have a stand on going and starts to bring money in. If they survive long enough we can send the money and it'll solve itself. If just one survives then we'll send it to that person. It's going to be fine. Don't worry so much, Hazel." I say and kick my shoes off. I dig my toes into the cold sand and look over at the ocean, I don't dare to look into her hazel eyes. I'll drown if I do. "Want to go swimming?" I say after a while of quietness. I thought she would reply but she has other plans. I take of my pyjama pants and wave at her to come from the street. She eventually does. I keep my shirt on, I don't have anything under it. The water is icing cold and I can hear Eileen gasping at it.

"I thought it would be a little warmer, it's the beginning of July and the sun has been so hot these past days." She grumbles as she takes another step into it. "Fucking icy water." She says to her feet. When she looks at me she says, "Do you know that I kind of hate water? This is such a stupid idea." I smile and chuckle.

"I remember." I say, she glares at me and splashes a little water on my body. My half body is in the water. She splashes some in my face. I gasp. "Oh fuck you." I don't revenge exactly after it. I dive into the water and come up and then I splash water on her. Now she can't do anything more. But oh, how wrong of me to think that. She smirks at me and before I know it I get a ton of water on me. She grabs my shirt from underwater and makes me come to her. I somehow grip her shoulders and get us over water. She still holds my shirt in a hard grip and I push her backwards. She drags me with her in the process. Now it's her time to grab my shoulders and take my over water. I splash water in her face and she lets go of me.

"This water is so gross." She says while laughing. I smirk at her.

"Of course it is." She looks back at me and I see something change inside her. She takes her hands and tries fix my mess of a hair.