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DON'T DECEIVE ME, SAMUEL

Since I was child my heart was really weak. I can't be too happy, sad and tired because when that happens I will lose my life.

When I was in elementary school, I was jealous of kids who could play and participate in PE. While me, I just sat on the side watching them happily participating in PE and all I could feel was sadness and jealousy. Why in the dynamic crowd, why was I chosen to be punished like this by God? My parents aren't bad people and I'm not a bad person either. Then why?

"You're so lucky, Jecile. I hope I have heart disease too."

I clenched my fists looking at the boy speaking in front of me and he was my classmate. He was Samuel who was known naughty and the smartest on our entire campus. He was gasping for breath and he was full of sweat while he smiled looking at me.

"If you think this disease is luck, then for me it is a big misfortune in life. I thought you were the smartest here?" I said in a disgusted tone.

He smiled. "If only I could take your illness, I'll take it Jecile," he uttered.

I suddenly felt guilty when I saw in his smile and in his eyes the sadness. I don't know what his reason is but i want to change his perspective.

Since that day he has been my friend. We are always together and he also takes care of me like a princess. I already know a lot about him. His mother is dead and his father is a businessman who always comes home drunk. Sometimes his father hurts him so I can’t blame him for being a suicidal person. He lacks love so I will love him until my last breath.

"I'm happy with you, Jecile. I want to be with you forever."

Because of what he said I smiled looking at him. "So that means, do you want to live?  Don't you want to die now?" I asked him eagerly.

He fixed my hair and he stared my eyes.
"Yes and let's grow up together, Jecile," he replied smiling.

My only plan was to change his perspective but I didn't realize that he changed my perspective too. Before because of my illness I lost hope to live but now I want to live and fight my illness so that I can be with him forever.

When we were in high school, she became my boyfriend. I don't know how I became his girlfriend and all I knew was that we both wanted each other we both want to be together, forever.

Samuel is famous on our campus, because apart from being smart, he's also handsome.
Even though there are many women who stumble upon him, he doesn't pay attention to them but he pays more attention to me like when we were in elementary school.

Sometimes because I was so happy to be with him, when I came home my illness attacked me. Because of what happened, my parents became angry with Samuel and pushed him away from me. But even so, he didn't give up on me and he proved to my parents that he was worthy.

When we went to college my illness got worse which is why my parents didn't allow me to go to college.

"So you're going to college without me?" I asked with anger and sadness.

He smiled and he patted my head. "Sorry if I seem to be selfish now, but I really need to go to college so we can fulfill our promise to each other," he uttered.

I took his hand that was on my head and pressed his palm to my cheek. "So you're really going to be a cop?" I asked.

"I've changed my mind. I'm going to be a doctor, not a policeman," he replied.

Because of what he said I was surprised and I touched both his cheeks. "Why! How can you fulfill your dream of catching people who hurt a child?"

"No, I will be a doctor and I'll cure your illness. I want to be with you forever, Jecile. So that's why, I want to go to college and learn how to cure your illness," he answered me and he touched my hand holding his cheek.

I'm happy with his decision but I'm also sad because what if he finds another woman at the school he's going to? What if he exchanges me for a woman who's better than me? The woman is more beautiful than me and without ill?

I stared him in the eye. "Just don't deceive me, Samuel," I whispered.

A few years later, Samuel successfully became a doctor and I became his first patient. He still hasn't changed his treatment on me, He still treats me like a princess like before.

"Good morning baby, how are you feeling?" he greeted me and kissed my forehead.

"I'm fine. By the way how long will i stay here in the hospital?" I asked.

"Until I find someone to donate his/her heart for you," he answered.

"Who's the person to do that?" I said with a sarcastic laugh.

He smiled bitterly and fixed my hair. "That's our big question but don't worry, I'll find a way. Let's grow old together, Jecile."

After a few days we still can't find a heart donor even if Samuel can give ten million and no one still accepts his offer.

Our relationship went well until he suddenly changed. He used to visit me almost every day but now only once. He used to take care of me, now it's just nurses.

I got up from my seat and went to the window. When I looked down, my whole body went cold and I knelt on the floor because of what I saw.

Samuel had another woman with him.
He deceive me. The woman was in a nurse's uniform and I could see with my own eyes that they were holding hands.

My chest tightened and my tears flowed. I had difficulty breathing and suddenly my vision blurred all I could hear were the voices of the nurses.
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I woke up when I felt someone touch my cheek and I slowly opened my eyes.

"You're awake," Samuel whispered to me.

I could smell the woman’s perfume on him and I could see on her lips with a bit of lipstick.

"Are you okay?" he asked with a worried tone.

But instead of answering him I ignored him and covered myself with a blanket.

"Did I do something wro—" but before he could complete his words suddenly his cellphone rang.

"I'm leaving, Jecile," he said and left immediately.

Even though my body was weakening, I got up to follow him and I was right in my suspicion that the nurse was with him. They entered the car holding hands and I immediately took a taxi to follow them.

When I arrived at Samuel's house, I didn't go in for about an hour. But when I heard a moan, even though my body was weakening I slammed the door.

"Fuck y—"  I couldn't continue what I was going to say because of what I saw, my knees weakened and I knelt on the floor while I covered my mouth.

He had no clothes on and his body was full of blood.

Samuel didn't deceive me but he deceived the nurse.

He killed the woman.

I forgot..
Samuel was a psychopath before.
He suffer from serious mental and physchological disorder because of his father’s abuse.

Not only did I change his perspective but also his whole personality. Since I came into his life, everything he did was for me. Like when he was supposed to be a policeman but he chose to be a doctor for me.

He looked at me and smiled while he held the woman's heart.

"Everything for you my love. I just want to be with you FOREVER..." he whispered.

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