The next morning comes sooner than I anticipated. I smile, remembering the soft lulls of Alexander's voice as he sang me to sleep. I think he will ruin me for sleep. If he keeps this up, I don't think I'll ever be able to fall asleep without having his voice filling the silence around me. I recognise that I am becoming way too attached, way too early, but I really can't stop myself when he does things like this. Things no one has ever done for me. I don't have the guts to admit aloud that, aside from sleeping in his arms, last night was the best night's rest I've had in a very long time.
Standing in front of my floor length mirror, I think about what I'm going to say to Colton once I get to his place. The last week had been worse than our entire relationship and that's saying a lot. I made up my mind. Today I'm ending things with him. I'm going to free him of this relationship and then hopefully we can go back to being friends. Truth is, this will be one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Not because I'm in love with him and don't want to give him up, but rather because I'm absolutely terrified at what his reaction will be. I don't want to hurt him.
I straighten my brown hair until it is perfectly straight and sleek. I then apply a thin layer of foundation, brown eye shadow and black mascara. For once, I want to start putting more effort into how I look. Not saying that I'm going to be doing this amount of effort with my makeup every single day, but at least more than once a week. I pull on my favourite pair of black skinny jeans, which I match with a deep brown, long sleeved shirt and my brown ankle boots. I look good. I think to myself.
The entire drive to Colton's house I feel completely relaxed. I know I'm doing the right thing, for the both of us. Be that as it may, once I stand outside of his door, waiting for him to answer, I feel my palms getting clammy. My heartbeat accelerates as I hear footsteps approaching the door. Why am I doing this again? No! I chastise myself. I came here to do the right thing for the both of us. I'm not going to back out just because I feel nervous. I can't be in a relationship with someone when my heart is reacting to someone else.
"Tyla..." Colton breathes out as soon as he opens the door. There's no anger, bitterness or hostility in his voice. Only surprise. "What are you doing here?" he asks before I manage to say something. He looks really good, not even I can deny that. His hair is gelled in a perfect messy style and he's wearing a dark blue denim with a black t-shirt.
"I... I came here to talk to you actually." I answer once I finished checking him out. He smirks, probably obvious to what I'm thinking. In my defence, I never doubted that he was good looking. Even when Alexander is so much more attractive.
"Really? That's weird, I was actually just finishing up to come over to your place. I wanted to talk to you too." This time, it is my turn to be surprised. I half expected him to tell me he can't talk right now or that he's going to Amber. Heck, I even expected her to open his door. Colton motions towards the house, indicating that I should follow him in. Smiling gently, I follow Colton back to the lounge. My heart drumming against my ribs as if it is screaming to break free.
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The Chaos Within: The Love that Remains
غموض / إثارةAll Tyla Hemmings wanted to do, was to finish high school, go to college and perhaps get married to her best friend, and boyfriend, Colton Adams. But all of that changes when she unexpectedly meets a handsome stranger one afternoon, and a serial go...