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                I must be in a dream

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                I must be in a dream. A beautiful, wonderful dream where Zander and I are actually together. We're actually an item. It feels so surreal, almost like someone's going to jump out of a closet and scream "hah! Got you!" It's been a couple of days after Alexander and I confessed our true feelings for one another and it still feels like a page out of a fairy tale. Of course, there are other factors that reminds me that this isn't a fairy tale, and everything isn't perfect.

"You wanted to see me." I hear Jasper greet coldly, cutting straight to the point as he slides into the booth in front of me. I arranged to meet him at our favourite ice cream parlour when I didn't hear anything from him after I saw him at Alexander's house. At first he didn't respond, like he did all the other times I messaged and called him. So I took it in my own hands. I phoned him from Allison's phone, begging him to meet me today, in hopes that we will be able to put everything behind us, but so far it doesn't seem to be going to well.

"Jas... when are you going to stop being mad at me? I'm sorry about the kiss. I'm sorry I hurt you. I didn't do it out of ill intentions... I needed to prove to you that I wasn't lying. Why are you so mad at me?" I plead, at the brink of tears. Grabbing his hand in mine, I silently beg him to look at me.

"You don't get it! You can't just go around kissing people when you feel like it just because you're trying to make a point. I don't want to be kissed out of sympathy. I want someone to kiss me because they actually want to. Because they want me like I want them. I'm not some toy to just be thrown around by every girl that thinks she has a point to prove!" He shouts at me, causing me to shrink in my seat with guilt.

"I'm really sorry about that Jasper. I didn't think about how it would make you feel. I'm really, really sorry. I didn't think it would hurt you Jas... I wasn't toying with you." I plead once more. "I hate it when you're mad at me. Please, you're my best friend. I don't want to lose you." I cry, tears now running freely down my cheeks.

"Maybe not, but you did and it isn't something I can just sweep under the rug because you're batting your eyelashes at me, saying sorry." He mumbles.

"I know that Jasp. I'm not asking you to sweep it under the rug. I'm just asking you to not throw me away because I made the mistake of hurting you. I miss my best friend Jas." I plead once more, hoping he'll notice my sincerity. Seconds turn into minutes as I wait for him to answer. He studies my face, his eyes penetrating into my soul.

"I can't stay mad at you. You know that, don't you?" He responds finally, a lazy smile making its way on his face. I breathe a sigh of relief, smiling back at him happily. I call for a waiter to order our ice creams.

"One strawberry and one chocolate fudge ice cream in a cup please." I say politely at the young man taking our order. He smiles warmly at me, scribbling down the order before walking away.

"You do realize that he was checking you out, don't you?" Jasper teases.

"No he wasn't. And even if he was, I'm not interested." I say bluntly, I want to tell him about my feelings for Alexander, but something is holding me back. I feel like I can't talk to him about Alexander anymore. Like that bridge in our friendship has been blocked due to my recklessness. Besides, I don't want to ruin the progress we've made so far.

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