I can't handle change [krdk]

Guilt.

Deku sat down on his bed frowning, he's a complete idiot he should've knocked.

He sighed feeling his stomach twist in guilt, he's supposed to spar with Kacchan today but he's not so sure if he can go after what just happened.

He laid down on his bed, he's not alone in this.

He knows there's people like him out there but he hasn't meet anyone who he can relate to you unless you count the discord he's in.

He remembers finding out who he is, it was terrifying.

He just hopes kirishima can forgive him, he didn't mean to barge in he was just excited because there was a new movie about all might.

He could've gone to Kacchan but Kacchan likes to act like he doesn't care about that type of stuff.

"Hey nerd are you fucking coming to spar or not" he jumped slightly hearing a bang against his door.

He rolled his eyes getting up walking over to his door "one second!" He opened the door, he sighed "I can't spar today" "why the fuck not?"

Deku looked away ashamed, he knows Kacchan would understand if he said what was going on but he didn't want Kacchan to hate him.

"Hey deku" bakugou frowned after deku being quiet for so long "is it your dysphoria? I don't fucking understand it but-" "Kacchan sh" deku covered his mouth with his hand.

Bakugou couldn't help but glare at him, he moved his hand off of him "get your nasty hands off of me" he grumbled.

"Listen I just don't feel well... but also don't go telling people about you know what" "oh my god, first off no one where is like middle school got it? Second off I'm not gonna go yapping my mouth about your fucking secrets"

Deku sighed nodding "sorry...." bakugou rolled his eyes ruffling his hair "it's fine I guess, fine take a day to fucking relax we can spar tomorrow"

Deku smiles softly nodding "thank you-" "shut the hell up just... fucking rest and if it gets bad text me got it?" "Yes I got it" deku but down on lip thinking if he should give him a hug or not.

Bakugou glared "just fucking do it" deku blushes softly wrapping his arms around bakugous waist hugging him "thank you" he whispered.

"Yeah whatever" bakugou rolled his eyes a little grin on lips "take care nerd" he grumbled as deku pulled away and walked away.

Deku shut the door behind him sighing, he hated feeling so useless.

He looked at his clock groaning "you got to be fucking kidding me" he grumbled walking to his bed laying flat on his chest.

He glared at his clock he should take his binder off but he hated that part of the day.

Kacchan wasn't wrong about his dysphoric kicking in, he had tears in his eyes why couldn't he just be a man? Would kirishima think he's manly if they knew about him?

He didn't want to think about the what ifs though because then he'll start to over think everything.

He got up from his bed slipping off his shirt and taking his binder off, he went to his closet grabbing a black baggy shirt hoping it'll do the trick.

After slipping it on he walked back to his bed and grabbing his laptop maybe he can just watch his favorite all might series.

He frowned slightly seeing a text from his group chat.

Iida: group study session?
Uraraka: I'm always there! 🫡
Tsuyu: I guess I'll be there.... can tokoyami join us?
Iida: sure! The more the merrier.
Uraraka: as long it's not bakugou then sure!
Midoriya: sorry I can't.
Uraraka: I was kidding 😭 he can join us
Midoriya: haha it's not that don't worry! Im just busy
Iida: understandable we hope to see you next time though.
Midoriya: sure thing captian 🫡

Deku sighed putting his phone away and started his favorite series "finally some peace and quiet" he mumbled to no one but himself.

AN

Hello I'll be updating every other day (: I decided to set up a schedule lol anyways I think each chapter will have a different point of view between kirishima and midoriya

Anyways thank you for reading and I hope you're enjoying the book so far! Let me know your thoughts 🤍