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WARNING THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS OVERDOSE 

Thursday 7th July 2022

Nessa's Pov-

I woke up today having the feeling that something bad was about to happen, I hate that feeling because it's always true. Today I was going to the studio with Cooper and Jaden, I was going to finish my song and Cooper will hear it for the first time. 

I got ready for the day and then took an uber to get to the studio, when I got there I saw Jaden. When I went up to him he kissed me and I kissed back of course, Jaden is really sweet and is making me forget about what happened with Josh. We wait like 10 minutes for Cooper but when he doesn't show we just go in.

Jaden: He's probable asleep I mean it is only 10

Nessa: True that 

When we were done we tried to call him again but still no response, oh my god that knob ditched us. He was probably with Sabrina or maybe with his sister. We decide to go to his house but his car wasn't there so he is out we call Sab to see if hes with her but she has no clue where he was. Now this is worrying, why isn't he answering his phone. I was about to talk to Jaden but my phone rang and when I looked it was my dad so I answered it.

Dad- Nessa can you come home please we need to talk 

Nessa- What's happened, is Megan and the baby okay 

Dad- I can't tell you over the phone baby, please come back 

Nessa- I will be there soon 

I told Jaden that I had to go home like right now but he forced me to eat something before I went home since I didn't eat breakfast. When I got home I sat in the car for a minute thinking about what is going to happen I know it's bad news and it's scary. After I kissed Jaden on the check before leaving the car, I walked up the drive way and turned around to see that Jaden had left. I guess there is no turning back now, when I walked into the house my dad and Megan were on the sofa but Coopers mum was here. They looked like they were all crying and I was so confused but then it hit me...

Nessa: H-h-hes dead isn't he 

They all turned their heads and my dad slowly nodded getting up to hug me but I didn't stay there. I rushed into my room and locked the door. I sat on the floor and just started sobbing, how the fuck could this happen?

 I wanna know how but I have a good idea on how, he overdosed, again but this time he actually died. It was 2 years ago when he nearly died, I remember the first time he overdosed he went into the hospital and I was so fucking scared and couldn't help but think I was going to lose my best friend but that time he lived. I thought he was getting better, why didn't he tell me he was thinking about doing this or was it an accident. Oh my god he planned this that's why he had everyone around yesterday, so he could see all of us . How did I not see this was coming? I shouldn't have left him yesterday not after I saw what happened. 

Cooper was everything, he was my best friend, he was my first kiss, he was someone who I could talk to. It was so easy to speak to him about my problems, he could come to me and I could come to him. Me and him have known each other since we were 1 so we grew up together, he was like my brother. 

It's been about two hours and there are no more tears coming out of my eyes, my body feels numb and I'm shaking. I never thought I would lose him not after what happened last time I thought he would just stop doing drugs because of the pain he put everyone in but I was wrong and now he's gone, he's put everyone in more pain and even heartbreak. Does Sabrina know she's going to be fucking heartbroken, she loved him so much they were only dating for a month and what about Jaden he's going to have to post that album and he's going to be heartbroken knowing that 'tell me about tomorrow' won't be possible. 

My dad was like his, Cooper grew up without a dad and when we met he used to call my dad his dad it was so confusing for the both of us. He didn't understand why we were over at his house everyday and how we weren't related but with me I didn't understand why he was calling my dad his dad. I was a very jealous child I didn't want anyone to have my dad other than me, I was afraid that they were going to take him away from me. 

I got up and went into my draw and flushed all of my weed in the toilet, I don't think I could have any of that again. I may have done the same with my BPD and my anxiety medication I mean I want all drugs out of my life even if they are good it won't be that bad. I go to my phone and see that Jaden texted me saying 'Ness I just heard and I'm sorry I know how much Cooper meant to you. I'm always here if you need to talk and remember I love you'   He's hurting but is still texting me saying all of that shit, I feel bad for him he was like Coopers brother they were there for each other. They used to hang out all the time and then they got into an argument a year ago and then fell out, even after that he still wanted to write the album about him. They were both so happy to be friends again and it was amazing to see them both happy. 

Dad: Nessa baby please open the door 

Nessa: Dad I want to be alone please 

Dad: Nessa it's for the better if your with someone it will hlep 

Nessa: I'm fine by myself 

Dad: Okay but princess please don't hurt yourself 

Nessa: I'm not going to 

I hear him walk away but like what the fuck. My best friend just died and all they care about is if I hurt myself. I'm not going to do that, I never have cut myself and I never will. I need a shower. After my shower I sat on my bed and held the teddy bear Cooper got me for my 5th birthday and cried with it in my arms. 'I'm going to miss you'. I lie down and slowly fall asleep crying. 


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