You saved me

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WARNING: THIS CHAPTER MENTIONS RAPE. PLEASE DON'T READ IT IF YOU DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE

Monday 4th July 2022

Nessa's Pov-

Today I tell Josh that I cheated on him, I'm so scared on what his reaction is going to be I mean of course he is going to be mad he has every right to but I don't want him to think that I'm a piece of shit. I feel so bad for doing this to him but I can't help my feelings, I don't know if I'm in love with Jaden but I know me and Josh are over. I don't like him like that and if I stay with him that's me lying to him and myself.

I was going to pick him up but he landed early and told me to just come to the sway house, so that's what I'm going to do. I got dressed and got ready for the day. Jaden was gone by the time I woke up but he left a note saying him and my dad went to the studio god lets just hope that he won't have a go at Jaden.

I got an uber to sway and Bryce opened the door, I've not really had any type of friendship with any of them other than Kio but we don't talk about him. He's a dickhead. I said hello to all of them and then went to Josh's room I opened the door to see him unpacking. I sit on his bed and say hello to him, he just gives me a dirty look and sits down next to me.

Josh: Hey whore

Nessa: Hey we need to talk

Josh: Okay

Nessa: I don't know how to say this but I cheated on you

Josh: WHAT THE FUCK

Nessa: I know your going to be angry but please don't yell and let's just have an adult conversation about this

Josh: Adult fucking conversation, you cheated on me. You are literally a fucking whore, I knew you would do this to me

Nessa: Josh I'm sorry it just happened

Josh: Bitch you know what I don't fucking care. Do you wanna know why

Nessa: Why

Josh: I had sex with someone while I was in Canada and it felt so fucking good

Nessa: So you just got angry at me when you've done the same fucking thing

Josh: Bitch I'm a male I can do that shit but you, you are a female which means you can't cheat and if you do it means your a whore

Nessa: Are you having a laugh right now, that is a bit sexist

Josh: You think I give a fuck, but now I've found out you cheated I need to teach you a lesson now

I was so confused but then he pushed me against the bed and got on top of me. I don't like this. I try and push him off but he slapped me, I try and scream but he puts his hand over my mouth.

Josh: Your going to enjoy this

Nessa: P-p-please

He doesn't stop he starts to take off my clothes and he is making me feel dirty, he kisses down my neck and leaves a hickey on there I already know. I should have let Jaden come. He moves down so his dick is so close to my vagina. I don't want this.

Nessa: P-please s-s-stop

Josh: No I won't baby girl, you are mine and now I get to do whatever I want

He forcefully puts himself in me and it hurts so much because I was so dry, he's going so fast and it's starting to hurt so bad. Why is this happening to me? I'm screaming so much and no one is coming to help me.

Nessa: *softly* someone help me

Josh: Oh I hope you know they can hear you but they won't do anything about it

After like 20 minutes of straight up torture I couldn't feel my legs my whole body was numb. He went into the bathroom but I left, the boys were down there smirking at me. What the fuck? They heard all of that and they didn't help me how fucking sick is that. I walked outside not wanting to speak to anyone but I need help to go home, I try and call my dad but he doesn't answer me so I call Cooper. I didn't want to call Jaden I don't want him to see me like this.

Cooper: Hey Ness, you okay

Nessa: C-come pick me up from sway

Cooper: Nessa what happened..answer me ness..did Josh hurt you

I didn't say anything, I don't think I was able to. I wait for him to come pick me up but when he sees me he hugs me and I start crying my eyes out. He picks me up and then takes me into the car, I just looked out of the window while he was driving me to my house.

Cooper: You need to go to the hospital Ness

Nessa: No I want my dad

Cooper: What happened

I don't tell him and I think the reason I don't want to tell him is because if I do then it actually happened. I didn't deserve this and I know that, I don't want him to know. I don't want to tell my dad he's going to get so mad at Josh and I don't want that drama.

Cooper: *comforting her* We're here now baby, do you want me to walk in with you

Nessa: *shakes head*

Cooper: Okay I'll see you soon

I get out but fall over a little bit, my legs still feel like jelly and I know my face is red and there are tears everywhere. I slowly walked into my house when my dad saw me he ran up to me and picked me up hugging me. Being here with him makes me feel safe. He takes me into the living room and sits down with me on his lap.

Dad: Princess what did he do to you

Nessa: *sobbing* H-h-he r-ra-raped me

Dad: Lets get you to the hospital and then we can get him taken away okay

Nessa: Dad no

Dad: Baby you need to go

Nessa: Okay

He picks me up again and then we head to the hospital, I'm shacking like mad and I'm just so scared. When we get there we go into the waiting room and he explains to the nurse what happened, the take me into a room and told me they are going to do a rape kit on me which is just proof.

Dad: Your going to be okay baby

My dad called the police and they said that we needed to go down to the station and talk to them. I'm so tired I don't want to go. After we finished at the hospital we went to the police and were there for 3 hours but now were on our way home. My dad is being really supportive and just holding me while I cry, when we get back home he gets Megan to give me a shower and then get into some clean clothes. After he puts me in his bed and lies with me so I can fall asleep.

After I woke up my dad was still there on his phone talking to someone, I tug on his t-shirt so he knows I'm awake. He put his phone down and comes to cuddle me, I'm so glad he's in my life I couldn't of asked for a better farther.

Dad: Are you hungry

Nessa: *nods*

Dad: Okay I'll go get you food

Nessa: No don't leave

Dad: Okay I'm not going anywhere I'll get Megan to bring food *Calls Megan* Hey babe could you bring some food up for Ness

After she brings up the food then I start to eat. God I'm hungry. I go on my phone because I don't want it to be weird but I went on twitter but I saw something on hollywire.

Hollywire- Tiktok star Josh Richards was arrested earlier today, we don't have any details on why but we will keep you updated

Great now I'm going to get dms asking why and they're just going to assume shit like they always do. I wanted him to go away not cause more drama in my life I don't need that shit. After I eat I close my eyes and try to get back to sleep which works but only because he kissed my forehead and rubbed my hair.