"Kim Jisoo focus!" our performance director shouted using his megaphone. We are rehearsing for our first online concert which is 'The Show'. I just came from my drama shoot and I went here directly.
I haven't had a proper conversation with Jin since that time that we fought. I decided to stay in the value where our shooting is located than going home. He would end up messaging me to take good care of myself, to eat well, to rest well. But he haven't said those three words again.
I was trying to understand him but I couldn't. It wasn't just me who has fault. He also. He was making his pride so high that it will be harder for me to adjust. And I can't just adjust always to what he wants.
"I'm sorry." I said to the performance director. We are having our pre-shoot of our Kill This Love performance. The members were all so considerate to me for giving me some time to perform well, and I can't help feel embarrassed since I'm not cooperating well with them.
Jennie caress my back and gave me a sincere smile. While the other two members are playing around with their dresses.
"Stay focus! We keep on recording again and again! I know you're exhausted that's why we need to finish this as soon as possible!" I nodded to what the performance director said.
I let out a long sigh and went back to my position, as soon as the music starts, I poured my hearts out feeling the lyrics of the song.
I easily find the cameras and give my best to my performance. It was then finished when the lights dimmed and I knelt down breathing heavily. Inhaling and exhaling sharply.
I looked down at my hands placed on my lap, they were shaking, and sweats covered my arms. Being exhausted is not what I've imagined. I was trying to be a professional performer, artist. But I'm still a human too.
I never showed how weak I am to my members because I don't want them to worry. I never cried in front of them, I never ever complain about my feelings.
"Unnie are you good?" Lisa held my left arm while patting my back. She slowly lift me up.
"You look so tensed unnie." Now it was Chaeyoung having a tissue on her hand and wiping my sweat on my face.
"I'm good Lisa. And I'm not tensed Chae." I answered the two of them. I got myself a bottle of water and sipped on the straw provided.
The director advice us to change our costumes to our individual performance dresses for the next shoot.
I was wearing an overall purple dress filled with flowers and there's a slit in front of it but it wasn't that high.
As soon as we changed our dresses we gathered up on the side stage and waited for the production head to give us instructions.
"Okay just like the usual routine Jisoo will practice her solo performance first, then Jennie, next Rosé, lastly Lisa." the production head said. I went to the stage where I will be performing. The girls transferred in front of me where chairs are placed for the staff, they began cheering for me, calling my name.
They are like our passionate fans.
As my solo song played, I inhaled a long breath and exhaled it as I put the mic in front of my lips and start singing.
I haven't done much on my performance since all I have to do is sit, stand and move my arms.
When the song ended I went backstage to change again. But I was shocked to see Jennie's mom inside our dressing room.
"Auntie." I called. She looked at me and smiled. She embraced me and cupped my face.
"Hey Jisoo. Have you been doing well?" she asked. I nod my head as a response. I don't know why she's here but the fact that she's here makes me nervous.
After some time, Chaeyoung and Lisa entered the dressing room with the same reaction I had. They were also shocked but they didn't show it too much.
I have a bad feeling about this. I actually don't hear any news from Taehyung. I don't know what's up with him and Jennie. I don't know what's happening. I was too busy to ask and to comfort my members.
We forgot one another. And I can't help feel a little guilty about it. I'm used to make the three of them as my priority but I wasn't able to do so since I also have my own problems that I can't even solve.
All three of us looked at the creaking door and Jennie entering.
"Mom?" she called. She looked at us confused, and we did is shrugged our shoulders.
"What's wrong mom?"
"Yeah auntie, is there something wrong?" I also asked.
"What did your father let you do this time?" her dad? He's here?
"Uncle is here?" Lisa also asked.
"I run over Taehyung in your father's company. I know something is up Jennie."
"Taehyung oppa is in your father's company unnie?" now it was Chaeng who asked.
"What is he doing there?" I couldn't control myself to add up.
Jennie looked at us apologetically and held her mom's arm.
"Mom...let's talk somewhere private. Please."
"I'll explain later. Excuse me." she excused.
Being curios about the whole situation, the two youngsters eavesdrop, placing their ears on the closed door.
"Auntie is aking unnie why opp is in her dad's company." Lisa reported. Rosé slap her hand and shushed her.
I was surprised when the two of gasped loudly.
"Why?"
"Uncle wants unnie to get married." the two of them covered their mouths.
I pulled them away from the door and I placed my ear on the door.
"Taehyung was in dad's company to fight for me mom. He wants to prove to dad how much he loves me." I heard Jennie said.
"Does he know the consequence Jennie?"
Silence takes over after auntie asked that.
"This is different mom, he loves me." Jennie stammered.
"It's the same Jennie. He'll end up like me. He will end up taking a responsibility that he never really wants. I don't want to pass to you the same mistake that both me and your dad have done before. As much as possible, let's not drag Taehyung into this."
"What do you mean Mom?"
"Let him go Jennie. I know it's hard, but he will understand. I don't want Taehyung to experience hardships just like how I am facing everything before."
I felt a pang of pain on my chest, Jennie has been suffering too. She have been keeping everything to herself. I hurriedly sat on the sofas and make the other two sit also. The door slowly opens, surfacing Jennie on the verge of crying.
"H-hi."
"Cry now." I stood up and went near her. As if on cue she did cry.
"We heard everything unnie. Sorry for eavesdropping. We didn't know about what you've went through." Chaeyoung said.
"We're here unnie." Lisa added.
"Will you stop everything with Tae now?" I asked.
"I don't know what to do unnie. Taehyung told me to choose him this time and I am, but I am afraid."
"So you're gonna tell him Jennie." I solved her problem.
"How?"
"Tell him about your situation. But if you choose him now, your dad will put the blame on him. If you choose your family, he will be rejected and I know he will stop. But he will not come back to you anymore."
"You're not alone unnie, let's face Taehyung oppa and your dad together." I don't know who between the two said it because I was trying to comfort Jennie. I should make her feel better first. I'll comfort myself after.
