You know that feeling that sometimes, even if you were to buy mars for the people that you care about they won't care cause its not enough? Like nothing you ever do will be enough for them to appreciate you or love you?
Its a very common feeling. Some people don't even know that they really feel that way until way later. It really sucks I know. Most of the time you don't even need to do the most to feel loved. Sometimes when you grow up in a house where your family's acceptance means a lot to you. Its hard to get out of the mindset of "I need to please them and make them happy at all times" which is really not possible. This grows with you and you really do struggle with it as an adult.
It follows you into your friendships, relationships and work environment. Even at the supermarket. Its frustrating. Then you tend to become really good at figuring out how people feel or what they're thinking about even when they don't say anything. So you obsess over it.
I just want to say I get it. You're not alone. I've been thinking about this all day. Nothing even has to happen. The big question everyday is. Why am I not enough?
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The Start Of Something New Or Terrifying
LosoweTW: Talks of eating disorders, self-harm, sexual abuse and suicide. The point of this novel is to explore how life can get really hard even if you have all the things you want. To also explore the fact that you can heal from past traumas but they si...
