I'm not alone

Chapter Seven

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Chapter seven

That small balcony looked empty without Lola. As I was standing there alone, waiting for the next lesson to start, it seemed like I was betraying our friendship, which could be destroyed forever. It wasn't fair that I was there without her. She was not there. Maybe that was the reason I'd gone there, hoping to find her, alone. Would I ask for forgiveness? I don't know. But I know that it was my fault. She was the only true friend I'd ever have, the only which I felt free with, I felt far from everything as indeed I was alone, without a weight on my shoulders. For a few moments everything was forgotten.

I missed her, but these were words I would never say to her.

"Lost in thoughts as always. It's nice to see you again"- Roel was standing alone, with a cigarette on his hand, in that tiny space in front of me. He was without his friend that was always with him, the same like me.

"Do you really need to smoke?"

"Do you really need to be concerned about the state of my lungs?"-he turned to me, and as wanting to say to me that he really needed to smoke, he sucked the thin cigarette that was between his fingers, drawing the smoke out of his mouth while looking at the sky like he was lost in it. "I knew that I would find you here."he added while turning his gaze on me.

"I like it, but I was just about to leave."- I threw the bag on my shoulder and was about to leave when his hand grasped my arm and drew me close to him. What the hell was he doing?

"Liar."- I tried to escape his grasp, but like a birdin the claws of a hawk, it was pointless.

"I... um... leave me..."- My voice betrayed the nervousness I was feeling. It was soft, low, more like a whisper.

"Why? Don't you like it whenI touch you?"-And he came even closer to me, as it was possible.

"No, Roel... lea-" but he didn't let me finish what I was saying, with a fast move he put his index fingers on my lips.

"Shtt little liar. I knowthat you like it and that you try to avoid it. But I don't know why."

"No, I simply do not"- his look was deep, penetrating, I couldn't hold on more my eyes on his so I looked away to avoid that penetrating gaze, that looked like it was trying to discover something inside of me, looked like it was trying to discover my deepest secrets, looked like it was trying to discover me. I felt naked in front of him.

"Your breathing was accelerated the last time I did this.."- and again with his palm he caressed my face.-"... there, it's happening again."- What was he talking about? Was it possible that I had lost the control of my being? Because I wanted to push him and leave, but I stayed like a statue, frozen in front of him.

"No."

"Stubborn. Accept it, you are attracted to me." -and he winked at me. And there he was ladies and gentlemen, the permanent arrogant.

"Only in your dreams. And you know what? I got tired of your games. Can you please not follow me behind like a shadow? One day I didn't even know that you existed and the next day you are everywhere. Just continue with your life, do what you usually do, just please don't block my car again. I don't think I can cope with your games and your arrogance for another moment. So, do me a favour and get lost."- And without hesitating I left with a set step and left him all alone in that small balcony to finish that cigarette that was burning in his hand.

"He is very charming, isn't he?"- I was the only one in the hall so it seemed like the girl was speaking to me. I didn't know her so I just continued to flip the pages of my notebook while I was leaning on my lockker for support.

"I'm talking to you, girl? Do you have a problem with your ears?"

"What do you want? I don't know you."

"And you don't want to make new friends?"- asked with a chuckle stamped on her face. This girl wasn't really interested to befriend me. In her eyes she was superior and I was a lost girl that she could stamp on with her feet. I wouldn't be anyone's ant, so I didn't ask myself why she was standing there trying to talk to me.

"Listen. Whoever you are, you want to make this conversation as much as I do, so save both of us the trouble and the loss of time."

"Ouchh, you cut me. I think that you should soften a bit if you want to have a good time with boys."

"I'm not interested in boys,"-now I was getting angry. I knew that I shouldn't answer her but I was so close to an explosion. I had to leave as soon as possible from there, to get out. I needed air, lots of air. Suddenly that dark hallway was very suffocating.

"Aaa, a lesbian"- and she started laughing with her lame ass joke.

"Get away before I loose my temper and shoot you." I turned to her with full irony.

"So, she know to retaliate."

"What is this? An analyse of the character? And who the hell are you?"

"Forget it, Clara."- And she turned to leave. Finally. "-Oh and that boy, is a real grape. If I was you I wouldn't play with him."- and she winked.

What the hell was she talking about? And how did she know my name?

I didn't have much time alone, because there was another voice again that interupted my thoughts.

"What tale was the Queen of peaches telling you?"- Lola. I smiled when I heard her sweet voice.

"Who?"

"Anny whoelse. God she is disgusting.

"I don't know her, and it was so strange, I don't know what she wanted from me."

"There should be any obstacle in the middle, nothing happens without a purpose. Be careful around her."- and she smiled.

"Lola, I ... thought that we won't talk anymore..."- at the end of the sentence my voice started to shake.

"Stupid, we are bestfriends, friendships don't get ruined for little things like this. I understand that it must be hard for you. We are good."- and without waiting for me to answer she hugged me. Finally something good happened in that day.

A/N: Guys this is a very short chapter but it's better than no chapter at all so be happy :)

Big shoutout to @_tirii because if it wasn't for her bugging me so much I wouldn't post this chapter so soon.

Sorry for the mistakes . It is not edited.

Lots of Love Eraa :D