Boyfriend Stealer-Byler

Fuck.

I have to take an actual break from writing for a little bit. I have absolutley no ideas and I fucking don't have any motavation. I can barely get out of my bed, I don't eat anything anymore. All i've eaten in the last two days have been one sandwich and a half of one. I'm going into a dark place again and I wanna get out but it's super hard to when I have so much shit going on. I'm so mentally exhausted. I want to see my fucking friend but I have the first day of school tmmr. I have no fucking friends, atleast none in real life. The only friend I have I can't see. I dont have any motavation to do anything. My sisters are making me so more exhausted than I already am. I wanna kms again which isn't fucking good. I hate absolutley everything rn. I just. I can't with anything atm. My baby cousin was the only thing giving me seritonin and now my aunt picked him up so I can't fucking see him. My mom's out with her boyfriend doing some shit. She's not even gonna be here for the fucking first day of school. Yeah she fucking has work but maybe just maybe this one time she could skip it for her own fucking children. I'm just dealing with so much stress and shit rn and I can't write. I'm sorry<3 I'll try and write as soon as I feel better.