Duality

Chapter 8

Amiya in the mirror just stares at her as she gulps in fear, afraid to give an answer to Amiya.

"Damn, I did not know that my voice was so captivating that you simply choose to listen without giving me a darn response. How rude of you to be honest; where are your manners you undisciplined fool?" Amiya spews out bitterly.

"I-I am not a fool. I am you and you are me Amiya." the reflection answers back hesitantly which ticks of Amiya even more.

This statement or rather silly words that come her mouth only brings amusement to Amiya, just who does she think she is in comparison to Amiya? Amiya merely scoffs unbothered of her reactions.

"Well, well, you are because I am only a fool to you, not everyone else. I've made plenty of mistakes, but one mistake that I can reform, for sure, is to eradicate you and your words."

This shakes up Amiya's reflection; never did she think of Amiya try to erase her reflection. Things are going downhill for the Amiya in the mirror, and she does not like it; she is in fear, horrified of what will happen to her.

Amiya in the mirror is thankful that she is within the mirror, Amiya cannot possibly hurt her physically at most. However, it is always the words that hurt most and strike the most painful damage to heart.

"You should be thankful that you are not here in person; not within my grasp where I can easily get rid of you. But no worries, you still are not safe even if trapped in the mirror. Unlike me, you are trapped with the need to rely on surfaces where a dual personality is required. I am free; free to roam everywhere with no worry of my existence on the verge of being perished whenever." Amiya taunts the reflection like there is no tomorrow.

The reflection shivers in horror; the fear terrorizing herself as it visibly drains the life of her face. After all, Amiya is right, she is stuck within the mirror. She wanders back and forth in the mirror; she has nowhere to go and seek shelter for herself to hide from Amiya.

"Hmm, you know what, you are absolutely correct. I should embrace myself- or rather my true self. Thank you so much for opening my eyes. I am not like everyone, nor should l reform myself only for the sake of pleasing and satisfying other pathetic people as you mentioned." Amiya continues with her long monologue with more intensity and harshness.

Amiya feels herself regain the psychotic side of hers as she smiles in a way as if she accepts this change with no regret.

The reflection sees what she thought would be the perfect plan if only things went in her favour; the Amiya she created with only playing with her words against Amiya. Instead, her own plan backfired on her in the sense that she made Amiya the girl she wanted; however, she is against her and pushing her back as if erasing her existence.

"Good girl, I do not want you to respond unless given permission. But I still would not want to hear the useless words coming out from your pathetic dirty mouth. So, save your worthless time it is unnecessary." Amiya casually spits out while looking at her cut hand.

The Amiya in the mirror stays silent. Her heartbeat just like how Amiya's friends were, beats faster than the speed of light. Her hands still shake as if they decide not to stop even if there is no direct danger nearby.

"You look stupidly hilarious in this state, did I really look like this when you had your so-called little moment?" Amiya laughs it off as another idiotic joke.

"You look like a damn villain, someone that really turned their back against the person who loved you the most. No, you are the wretched villain that deserves to be hated on." the Amiya in the mirror stirs out without realizing her own words.

Amiya raises her eyebrow while she tilts her head to the side. She simply shrugs off her words before she takes a step back to stand taller with pride. Like her final powerful closing statement has yet to make its appearance.

"Well, if that makes me the villain, then so be it. I will be the villain; the villain that even my own shadow and reflection tremble in fear of whom they follow. I will be the damn villain who will throw everyone under the bus for my own needs." Amiya presents herself aloud with pride.

The reflected Amiya just stares at her with huge eyes in shock. Amiya is not kidding; she means what she says.

"I am the bad guy because of everything that you all put me through. Or more so, what I put myself through with the spectators simply adding on with nothing but ways to make matters worse. In conclusion, I was and am the villain. There was no choice or say from the start; it was taken from me at first sight. I am the misunderstood hero who only became the villain from tolerating and bearing the negligence to the point where I physically cannot anymore." Amiya pours out her heavy heart, as if reciting her tragic backstory.

Amiya feels her tears resurface but ignores them as she continues speaking her insane heart out. Her reflection watches her feeling miserable that she is not in control of Amiya nor the situation anymore.

"I have just realised that no person is perfect. There are flaws in everyone we are connected in some sort of way. It is just the misconception and lowly standards that perfection must be achieved to be counted as a true individual which messes up a person's mind. For me, I cannot ever express myself. Or else, I turn into the crazy one for speaking such ridiculous nonsense." Amiya bluntly speaks out to her reflection.

"That is because you are crazy! Do you not see yourself or hear the things that come out from you. Only a madman talks like this or even thinks like this." the Amiya in the reflection blurts out unable to keep herself from staying quiet.

"Of course, I am mad, of course I am crazy. You and everyone including me are the vain reasons why I am such an insane maniac. 'Oh, she is not paying attention to anyone but herself; she is so selfish.' just how much more do I need to be called selfish or arrogant for wanting just a tiny bit of help or time for me? How much more do I need to remind myself that where we live in, the norm here is being a stupid people pleaser as it shreds your own heart to pieces bit by bit? I am fed up with it, so fed up with it." Amiya rages at the mirror, smacking her hands against the counter aggressively.

Amiya looks up at her reflection in the mirror. Her eyes red and swollen yet eerie as she sees herself and smiles creepily.

"Your words are toxic not just to me but to you too. Why be so harsh?" Amiya on the mirror asks curiously while still scared lifeless.

Amiya closes her eyes and smirks as she lets go of the counter.

"Oh, I very much know what words I speak of; I am the devil who is searching for redemption. The redemption of my past mistakes and misdemeanours towards everyone. But then again why should I do that? You are right I should let myself turn into the insane little girl I was meant to be." Amiya chuckles manically as she stares up to the bright lights.

The reflection of Amiya feels bone-chilling goosebumps run through her body and shudders in fright upon witnessing Amiya. She lost it, she really done did it and has gone mad.

"You know what, you should fear me because I am in control. Everything is merely in the grasp of my fist; you dance and spin around on my finger like a lost puppy and everyone will simply follow you blindly. Haha, one thing I know very well is the ability to manipulate and lie my way through. No one will know that sweet little Amiya has lied." Amiya snickers more devilishly as if talking to herself now.

Amiya's eyes water up from the nonstop staring at the gleaming lights as tears slowly trail down her face. Amiya loses her insane part once again as her throbbing pained heart takes over her mentally crazed mind.