Destined

Conversations

You should listen to my conversations with this brat.

Actually no. Don't. I'll convey the important bits. He's too cheesy for my weak heart sometimes. And I know Jeonlous is more famous than Taelous, but please do not underestimate.

Since the Citi Field concert, we've been talking a lot about how dumb we both are. Jimin agrees. We keep telling each other how many hints we've dropped and missed. One day, Jimin walked in on such a conversation.

"The entire fandom is divided between 'Taekook is real' and 'Taekook is fake'... people are fighting amongst themselves like their lives depend on it, writing fan fictions and creating analysis videos. I seriously don't know how you two idiots did not realise."

"Jiminshi can you please stop insulting my boyfriend."

"Well before becoming your boyfriend, he is my best friend you brat. I can say anything I want to him."

If I said I do not enjoy this hilarious fight between my two special ones over me, I would be lying. I love it!

Kookie says I should have got it because I am the only person whose cheeks he would kiss all the time. It's true. He doesn't do that with anyone else. But then, I was the one who initiated it, way back. When I was younger and much lesser in control of myself (not that my control mechanism on myself really works very well around this boy), I had to figure out a way to just normalise me being so close to him all the time. I would just peck his face as many times as I could. Now that I think back, the boy who would flinch at any one invading his personal space, never had a problem with me, who does not understand the concept of personal space when it comes to people that are special to me.

But can you blame me? Even Yoongi hyung cannot resist my charms.

One day Kook and I had a small breakdown while we were discussing our separation. It was needed, that conversation. He needed to know that there were many times when I know he expected my presence right beside him but I was just not allowed. You guys have just seen some instances on the camera. I would always make sure to send him a text, but physical presence matters. Don't I know? I was the one left alone most times.

What surprised me was that he was so apologetic. He kept saying that he hated being the one protected from the hurt by being provided with Jimin as a buffer while I was left to deal with things myself. I would've never wanted Kook to be alone. I was glad that Chim was with him. Now will I deny that I was extremely jealous? I won't. But I know better than holding a grudge against the angel that is Park Jimin. No no. Not even for the Japan trip. They both brought me too many gifts back from the trip to make it up to me. I did wonder why though. It wasn't like I had any claim on Kook back then. But Kookie was so apologetic. I have never received so many texts from him in one day before.

Its different now, however. The number of texts he sends me now is insane. Hyungs would never believe me. The guy who never cared about his phone is always on text with me if he's not in front of me. Actually, he texts me then too. He doesn't text me only if I'm in his arms.  Bliss.

When Kook's in the mood to confess, he goes like this.

"I literally told you not to introduce me as a friend. You didn't get it. I said saranghae on camera on that trip, on camera even. You didn't get it. I got you to sleep with me in the same room during Bon Voyage, you didn't get it. Hyung I even asked you to choose between your actor friends and me. I could not have been more obvious."

"I literally wrote Euphoria for you. I sang There's Nothing Like Us. This is all on camera Tae. I declared my love for you publicly. Always. I won't even go into the details of everything I did off camera. Don't tell me you didn't notice."

I did notice. Every time he did these things, I would get flustered. My hopes would rise. Then I would read comments that said I'm no good for him. And I'd shut right up. He would always cook me a non-spicy dish when everyone would eat spicy food and forget about me (not intentionally). He would come and praise me and my work knowing how insecure I am. He would take extra care and learn all my steps and lines to prompt me during practice in case I forgot. Being so proactive is not in his character, he's a shy boy. But he would always go out of his way for me. So when he puts it like this, I have nothing to say. Except...

"Kookie, I was so obvious they kept me away from you, remember?"

"Tae..."

"Don't be sad about it love. I'm just saying that I can't even form proper sentences most times, but I love you, I do."

That's all it takes to make my bunny smile.