Destined

My Baby Bear

Jungkook's PoV

The PTD 2022 tour was wild. Ummm. Yeah I had quite a role to play in it. When Yoongi hyung told us to just enjoy this tour because of the upcoming break in group activities, it just lit a fire in me that I couldn't control. You see, we all follow news, and SNS, and things that our fans and haters post. We're all young people who know the deal. This is part and parcel of stardom. But I hate the way Tae is treated by people. There's so much hate about him whenever we're spotted close to each other. I can still try to understand people feeling heartbroken about us being queer. But the way they try to portray that Tae is all over me while I am not interested, is just pushing the boundaries too much.

I like to believe I am more into Tae than he is into me. Because that is true. I love him more. Period. (And I am so fucking glad about it!)

So I just wanted to show the world that he is mine. That lap is mine. That man is mine. And I am going to be all over him all the time, because I have the exclusive rights as his one and only boyfriend. Hah!

So I did. That's all there's to it.

On the last day when he caressed me during DNA, the lyrics suddenly made more sense. The words suddenly felt more meaningful. The chords suddenly struck deeper. 'Don't worry love, none of this is coincidence." That caress will be etched into my skin for years to come.

Sometimes I think back to all that we've overcome, as a group, and as just the two of us. From being kids who grew up together, to the separation, to hiding our love, to sacrificing our true identity because the world can't digest it... we've been through a lot, Tae and I. And through the whole journey, our love has only grown. We've matured. He's grown less insecure. I've learnt to control my possessive streak. We've grown as a couple, learning to trust each other more with each passing day, learning to communicate better, learning to be as much ourselves, as much as each other's.

"Things are going to be different after June, Kookie"

"Hmm... they are"

"We'll be following our own schedules. You and I won't have the same schedules anymore bun"

"I'm going to miss you"

"But we'll always come back home to each other, right?"

"Yes we will. No matter how long our schedules, how far we are, how busy, we will come back home to each other"

"Is that a promise?"

"Of course it is a promise my baby bear"

Of late, these conversations have become more regular. We end up kissing more, every chance we get. We end up making love more. Because we both know that the next two or three years are going to be so different from what we're used to. For us as artists, this is important.

"Its our prime years Koo"

"It is"

"Even when you become the greatest singer in the world, singing chartbuster after chartbuster, you're going to be my bunny, no?"

"I'll always be your bunny first and everything else later"

"You better"

"And you? You'll start ruling the fashion, modelling, acting, singing world with that amazing face and talent of yours. And millions of people will be running after you, and they'll want you. They'll all want you because you're just so beautiful bear. What will happen to me?"

"I belong to you Jeon Jungkook. You know that. I want only you"

"Will you always?"

"I will always want only you. Don't worry love"

"DNA?"

"Way to spoil the moment Koo"

"You're smiling though"

"So?"

"I'm crazy about your smile"

"Kooooooooookieeeeeeeee"

I shut him up with a kiss, because I wanted to eat up that beautiful boxy smile.

Turns out, things weren't going to be as easy on us as we thought. Especially for my baby bear. It started more or less around the Grammy's, but we all brushed it off as a one-off. But then, a little before our Festa and announcement of our solo commitments, things started to take an ugly turn. Then it seemed like a barrage of negatives was being hurled towards him - rumours, threats, hatred, controversies. It was like they didn't want to give him time to breathe.

I was mad. I was furious and almost on the verge of making public announcements to protect him. He held me back. He. comforted. me.

I mean.

Wow.

This man.

"It's a phase Koo. People just don't want any one of us to steal the spotlight. Its fair. All of us should be equally loved, and equally popular. I feel so too"

"That's not a valid excuse and you know it"

"I do, I do. But it's ok. We'll get through this"

"How are you even so calm about this Tae?"

"Cuz I have you. You believe in me. That's all that matters, no?"

"Popularity is such a subjective thing. You've never tried to steal the spotlight Tae. They give you lesser lines, they don't promote you much. This is all your raw talent that shines through always. Why can't people see your hardwork?"

"They don't love me as much as you do"

"I'm glad"

"There's my possessive double bunny"

"It's not funny Tae"

"It's not. But it's not in our hands, baby. It will pass. Don't worry"

It's beyond me how he is the one calming me down when he is the one who is being targeted. It's not my fault that I keep falling for him again and again.