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Taehyung's PoV

I'm not a simple person. There are thoughts running around in my head all the time, half of which I can't comprehend myself. Some, I do make meaning of. Some haunt me. Some make me happy. Some turn into music. There aren't many things that I know. But two things that I do know, are that I, Kim Taehyung, am irrevocably in love with Jeon Jungkook. And two, I am an artist, hence insatiable.

Kookie says I am strong and too calm. I am not. I have not enjoyed being the target of the recent storm in my life. Hatred scares me. Heck, I get scared when someone tells me I am their bias. I want them to love all seven of us equally. To be called names, given death threats, being used to fuel controversies to create trending news - this is not the kind of fame I wanted. Or deserved. So even though Kookie thinks I am handling this immensely well, I am actually not.

No, I haven't hidden my feelings from him. That, I cannot do. He knows I'm disturbed. We all are. But he expected me to react more. Because this time, it was really too much, back to back. I am in the entertainment business, I do love to see my name trending. But not for the wrong reasons day after day. So I did the only thing I know how to do. I went wild, Kim Taehyung style!

With the Paris Fashion Week, or my recent stint with Vogue Korea, all I wanted to do was show the world that they can't dim my shine. Nobody can. Not any more. I know I am a force to reckon with, Kookie reassures me everyday. The nervous and insecure Kim Taehyung is long gone, my boyfriend has helped nurture my soul with so much love and support that I dare not question myself much. When you know that the person waiting for you at home exudes pride in whatever you do, it's easy to fly. That's what love does to you. That's what love should do for you. It should bring out your superstar. I believe in being that confidence for Kookie, he is that confidence for me.

When I shot for Vogue, I was toying with the idea of baring my back for that picture. Not just because my boyfriend is extremely protective (read possessive) of me showing skin, but also because it was a rather big leap for me. (I won't deny that Jin hyung really paved the way, should thank him some time). When I showed the photograph to Kookie, let's just say that there were some pretty drastic expression changes on his face (leading to some pretty questionable activities inside the bedroom).

At some level, I was wondering what his reaction would be. Whether he would be comfortable with that photo being published. Knowing Kookie, he wouldn't hinder the process at all, no. But he'd pout, and he'd complain, and he'd nag till he was satisfied that I understood he was jealous and possessive. To my surprise however, he smiled when I asked him. Smiled and said, very soon you'll know how I feel about this. And went on to urge me to recreate the bare back during rehearsals for the Busan Concert. (Yep, that's the backstory of why Jeon Jungkook undressed Kim Taehyung on stage that day. Now you know).

I was laughing because I knew what he was trying to do. I was shy because I am not used to him being like this. Later, he told me, "Go rule the world Tae. I know we belong together. I've grown up now. As long as you're comfortable, I am comfortable with whatever you choose to do. I used to be stupidly possessive because you weren't mine yet, and then I was still learning the ropes of being in a relationship. But now I know these are things that don't matter. What matters is that you love me."

And then he added a "only me in the whole wide world where there are billions of people, hah!", making me wonder if he's really grown up at all.

But that's my Kookie.

My all grown-up Kookie who sulked and sulked and pouted just a few days before giving me this spiel as my schedule in the US for Vogue was supposed to stretch to a day after his birthday. And then said, "ok go. I will be a good boyfriend and not stop you but you have to come back and stay locked up in one room with me for four days after that." Doesn't he fight with you all too about being called a baby? Hmph.

The idiot didn't know that I was never going to miss his birthday. How can I? Of course I came back early. Of course everyone guessed why. Of course I don't care about that because I was greeted with the tightest hug and a torrent of kisses when I showed up at the door early in the morning, waking up a really surprised bunny boy. He couldn't stop smiling throughout the day.

"Did you have to upload the sparring video as soon as you got into the car babe?"

"Yes of course! It was so important!"

"And why so?"

"Army's been asking for it for so so long"

"Whose birthday is it?"

"Aah. It was just my way of showing them that it's MY baby's birthday"

"Your baby huh?"

"Absofuckinglutely my baby. Do you doubt it?"

"Come're you"

Yeah they didn't want anyone to know that I came back for my boyfriend. It doesn't matter to me as long as they don't stop me from letting the said boyfriend know that I came back for him. Which they don't. So all is cool. (Also, everyone knows anyway. No one's dumb).

"Why'd you lie?"

"About what Tae?"

"You thought I was sleeping, but I watched the live"

"Ohh... I thought I'd do the live while you were sleeping so I don't miss out on time with you"

"Yeah but Jin hyung was so loud, I woke up"

"You should've told me"

"Like how exactly? Pop up during your live and say hey baby, happy birthday to the best boyfriend in the world, now gimme a kiss?"

"As much as I would love that, I guess not"

"Also it would mean that you're a liar"

"Again? What lie is this?"

"Did V drop by to see you? No he didn't. You lied twice!"

"Jin hyung was trying to get us into trouble by asking about you twice, wasn't he?"

"You know he's mischievous when he's drunk. But you lied. Twice"

"I didn't lie"

"You're lying again!"

"Nope"

"Koo"

"I didn't lie because V didn't drop in to wish me. He flew around the world to be with me on my birthday. And he doesn't need to drop in. He lives here. In this house. And in my heart"

"Ohhh shut up you"

"Cat got your tongue?"

"You're too much"

"Admit you don't have a response to that"

"I..."

"Admit it"

"I didn't do much Kook. For your birthday, I just came home. You are my home."

"..."

Yeah no other words were needed that night.