Waves - Book #2 [completed]

20 ~ Absquatulate

Absquatulate
verb
to leave without saying goodbye

It wasn't a dream. No. It had been very, very real. I can tell because I'm still very much awake when Chase and my brother stumble into the room, flicking on the light and finding me with my face between two pillows.

After checking for vital signs they don't pay me much attention and I just listen to them giggle while brushing their teeth before shrugging out of their clothes, spreading them all over the hotel room and cuddling up in the twin bed next to me.

It's when the lights turn off that I remember that I left my bag with all my things at Danny's. I can't get them now, but I should at least get changed. Only I can't move, fearing that something on my face would expose what I did. Maybe my swollen lips, or the guilty look in my eyes. That kiss sobered me up real quick and now my stomach tingles every time I think about it.

A pillow hits my head followed by Luke's deep murmur. "Go change and brush your teeth, Blue. We don't need your hangover breath tomorrow."

Groaning, I sit up, wait for dizziness that doesn't come and stand. I peel out of my dress, pick at the the boob tape that I had to go out and buy because I forgot to bring but still wanted my dress to say put, and steal one of Luke's shirts and boxer shorts to sleep in. But I can't sleep. I lie awake, staring at the ceiling for hours until I watch the sunrise where the sky kissed the ocean's surface.

Kiss.

I kissed Mason. I wanted to do it at midnight already, and was disappointed when it didn't happen. So, I made the final move when I got another chance. I pressed my mouth to his and loved every second of his lips on mine, warm and demanding, dominant and tender. I'm sure this is how vampires feel when they taste the first drop of blood and crave more, unable to stop. It was wrong and impulsive. Alcohol induced temerity. But wrong never felt so good. I wanted more. He did too. I felt it all throughout the night how he tried to hold back when his hard dick prodded at my back. It's wild thinking that he was getting so turned on. The spot between my legs was aching for him too.

But he... I don't know, he looked flabbergasted, the tips of his ears burning, when he forced himself to pull back. And then he just left. What does that mean?

With a huff, I sit up and climb into bed with my brother and his boyfriend, like the pathetic being I am and hug the life out of him, pressing my face to his back. He doesn't protest since he's already fast asleep. There isn't much space and it's totally possible I might fall off the bed during the night. But I don't care. I need this.

"I kissed Mason," I whisper against his shoulder, not knowing if I want him to hear me or not. But after that confession and clutching my brother even closer, I'm finally able to drift off to asleep.

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"I'll never drink again," I promise to myself, positioning myself awkwardly front of Danny's apartment with Luke's shirt on over my dress from last night.