Box Flower

00-Beginning

I knew I shouldn't. Couldn't in this life. But the way I felt, I couldn't deny it either. I knew then, something was definitely growing attached. I needed to get out and quickly before hell broke loose and everything fell apart.
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I promised I would never tell a soul. With that, I hide behind the pages of my words. Upfront prompt without confrontation. Call me coward, selfish, a whore, whatever you need. I probably am. Im not meant to be seen as a protagonist or antagonist. I am to be truthful here, because I cannot anywhere else. I cannot even rely on myself to accept how I feel or how I react.

Self betrayal is the worst kind of mental pain I've experienced. Which is surprising, considering the hell I survived, and continue to survive everyday. Self betrayal holds a multitude of emotions and actions. It starts with the realization of what probably is. The denial is next, refusing to believe what's been discovered. Acceptance, of what is. And lastly, the uncontrolled reaction. Not having control over your own body after something emotional or important happens, is dangerous. The Acceptance stage is the hardest. The acceptance of reality, of fantasy, of love and death. All of which are horrifying. Reality is scary, saying goodbye to fantasies is scary, love is scary because with love could come loss, and death. That explains itself.

This is unfiltered truth. Hurtful, most likely. Judge me. Justify me. Hate me or Love me. But this is the raw, hard to swallow, unchewed thoughts and actions of Indigo Daxton.

It all begins here.
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A/N:
Here's where we will begin. Just to clear up, this book is going to have a lot of things into it. I'm not too sure on all of the TWs and things like that but at the beginning of each chapter I will put one at the top if need be.

Another thing. If you read 'The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo' the real feel that book gave is what this book has in common. For those of you that haven't, this book will be difficult to digest. It's meant to be hard to keep reading but hard to put down. Hopefully this makes sense.

Not to be insensitive, but if you disagree with something in the book, and would like me to remove it, I will not be doing so. If you don't like something about this book, just back out and stop reading it.

That is all I have to say.

Enjoy.