I love you, Caregiver

Chapter 16 Found you

Benedict POV

Dear Sir Benedict,

Hindi nako magpapaalam sayo ng personal. Alam mo naman na ang dahilan ko. Ayoko ding makasagal sa inyo ni mam Zoe. Salamat sa lahat ng ibinigay mong kaligayahan sa buhay ko. Salamat din dahil marami akong naranasang magagandang bagay nung mga panahong magkasama tayo. Salamat sa pinakamagandang regalong ibinigay mo sa akin.

Mahal na mahal kita kaya ayokong mahirapan ka pa na mamili sa amin. Ingatan mo sana ang sarili mo.

Mamimiss kita.

Deann

I crampled the paper. 'How could she leave me like this?' I thought.

'This cant be, she cant leave me like this.'

I immediately get on my car and leave. I went to their house in Malolos. But no one's home. I saw the big lock on the gate and on the door.

" Ikaw ba yung nobyo ni Deann?" The woman from the store ask me." Nako wala na sila jan. Hindi na nga namin inabutan yung mag-ina kaninang umaga."

'Where could they be?' I asked myself.

"May alam po ba kayo kung saan sila pwedeng nagpunta?"

"Ang alam ko nasa Negros ang mga kamag-anak nila." She answered.

Another woman butt in, " Anong Negros, diba Perly sabi ni Rosa taga Pangasinan daw siya?

They all got me confused. I decided to just leave.

I took 2 bottles of whiskey from the cellar. I didn't even need ice or glass. I drank frOm the bottle.

I feel broken. I feel lost. I feel pain.

A lot of pain, right here in my heart.

I sob. I can only cry. I never thought I'd feel this way again.

Heartbroken.

Even broken than the first one. I tried calling Deann, but its out of reach.

"C'mon!" I shouted at my phone. " Let me talk to her, let me fucking talk to her"I keep on yelling at my phone.

"God please...let me talk to her, just this once." I just keep on sobbing.

I indulge myself in pain and whiskey.

The next morning, I asked nurse Kim to call Deann using his phone, but its the same thing. She must be using another number. I got really frustrated and desperate. I just cant be away from her.

I called a private investigator.

I gave details of Deann, I also sent pictures of her and her Mom.

I had hopes in my heart. Im praying that the private investigator would find them.

That night I went to Deann's old room. I told Manang Lita to lock it and never clean it or change the sheets. I want to keep it that way.  I can still smell her on the sheets and her pillow. I remembered our first night in that room. And all the nights we had. I recall all our happy memories.

"Boo, gising ka na. 4 am na." Her voice everytime she wakes me up to go back to my room.

" I love you," I remember her sweet whisper in my ear, when she thought I was already asleep.

I also remember her moans and whimpers everytime we make love on this bed. I remember everything. And it just hurt.

I opened her cabinet. She left everything I gave her. Even the necklace. Even the sleep wear. She left all our memory behind.