The Unwanted Mate: The Bond

Chapter 33:

Marc POV:
I get in my car ready to drive to the training fields. I look over at the passenger seat where Hannah usually would be, but today Joanna has other plans, so Hannah is staying home. I asked her what her plans was for the day and she didn't know. Said she probably just stay at the house. I know I should just put it in drive and go, but I keep looking over at the empty seat. Should I ask her to go with me? No. No I don't think I would be able to focus if I knew she was looking at me.

I make up my mind and go to the fields by myself. The day seems to go on forever. Usually I would drop by Joanna's office and have lunch with Hannah and Joanna, but since she is at home and reassured me that she didn't need anything, I stay at the fields through lunch. I wonder what she is doing. Does she miss me? Does she think about me? Or maybe she is just enjoying some alone time. What if she walks out into the woods? Everyone in the pack knows she is mine so they wouldn't hurt her. I made sure of that. But what if she gets lost? Or hurt?

Argh.. I didn't bring her here because I knew I wouldn't be able to focus, but hell this is just as bad! I know she has been to the woods several times by now, I've walked with her most of the times. In the beginning I walked with her in my wolf form but one day she asked me if I could stay human. Said that it would be easier to have a conversation with me in my human form. It honestly made me so happy. Until that point I knew that she had preferred my wolf form. She even kept referring to it as a separate person saying 'he' when she was talking about me in wolf form. But after that day she stoped. She doesn't prefer my wolf form, she doesn't think of my two forms as different persons and she even started talking to me just as easily. At least in the woods. For some reason she finds it easier to open up to me in the woods.

"What's up dude?" Jason ask bringing me out of my trail of thoughts.

"What do you mean?"

"Arh come on man. You have been somewhere else the entire day. You might be here physically but your thoughts aren't. So what's up?"

Well who did I think I was fooling anyway..

"Sorry. I just.. she's in my head all day long. I keep thinking about her in.. well.. not so innocent ways"

Jason's face lights up and a big smile appears.

"Did you two have sex?"

A growl escapes me before I can stop it.

"No. We still haven't even kissed. But last night she had a nightmare and I stayed with her in her bed for the rest of the night"

"Wait, still haven't? So you plan on kissing her at some point?"

"What? No! No. We are still breaking the bond. So I'm not going to kiss her"

"What if the bond can't be broken? What will you do then?" He ask the questions I knew would come at some point and I have no clue what to say. I've been trying not to think about it.

"It must be possible" I simply reply.

"And if it's not?"

"Well then she.. she.. fuck I don't know. I guess she goes home without the bond being broken. She wants to go home. She miss her home and her mom" I snarl. I feel a knot in my stomach at the simple thought of her going home. Shit. She really has gotten under my skin. Maybe I need to take a step back. Keep her at a safe distance. That way it won't be as hard when she takes off.

"Maybe she would stay if you ask her?"

"No. We don't belong together" why does it feel so wrong to say?

"I think you do. Both of you have changed over the last month. You have a good effect on one another"

"I haven't changed" I look at him in disbelief. Why would he say that?

"No? I just saw you loose a fight on purpose. You gave him some confidence by loosing and we both know you could have won. And you disappear everyday around lunchtime. You would never stop and leave the fields usually. Oh and how's Kendal? I mean if you haven't changed then surly you haven't gone long without sex, right? When was the last time you saw her?"

He was right. I haven't been with Kendal since Hannah moved in. I tried one of the first nights but I couldn't even get a hard on, so I left Kendal's apartment again. She begged me to stay but I didn't. I had to get out.

"I'm taking your silence as a you're right Jason, I sure have changed" he says in a mocking tone and laugh. I can't help a small laughter from escaping me as well.

When the training of all the warriors are done, I get in my truck and drive home. I smile like a fucking idiot all the way, knowing she is back home waiting for me. But then I remember the plan. I have to keep my distance. I need to create some distance between us.

I walk into the house and then a scent hits me. A scent I know all to well, and it doesn't belong to Hannah. The smell of leather and cheep perfume. Kendal.

"Hannah" I call out but she doesn't respond. "Hannah" I try again and hurry upstairs. Her bedroom is empty. Fuck.. Where is she?!