The Unwanted Mate: The Bond

Chapter 34:

Hannah POV:
I've been at the house all day. Marc should be home in a few hours and honestly I'm looking forward to it. I've been out in the garden and looked around, but there isn't much to see. I watered the few plants out there and then sat in the shade of the large tree and read a book I borrowed from Nelly. I ate lunch by my self and it just wasn't the same without Marc. Our daily lunch break is something I look forward to every day, and today I knew that I wouldn't get to see him. So now I'm counting down the time until he returns home.

I walk upstairs towards my bedroom when I see that Marc's door is still open. My curiosity getting the best of me, I slowly approach the door and take a look inside. The room is larger than the bedroom I sleep in. Large windows facing the forest fill up the entire wall access from the door. The view is beautiful. Simply breathtaking. I sit down in the massive king sized bed and look out the window, enjoying the peace it brings me. The bed is fluffy and I almost feel like it could swallow me whole. Large pillows are stacked against the headrest and two duvet are laid out nicely on the bed. I lay down in the bed and feel the soft fabric on my skin. It feels nice. I inhale his scent and bury my face into the bed. He smells so good! But it's like his scent doesn't something to my body. Something more than usual. Normally it calms me down but right now it's like it's making my stomach twist. Or many it's not my stomach.. it's my.. well my private parts.. even thinking the words makes my cheeks flushed. I lay in his bed for a while and at some point I let my hands wander around my body. It's all innocent yet the simple touch combined with his scent is making me feel.. pleasantly I guess is the best way to describe it. I cuddle into the bed and close my eyes.

I sit up quickly as I hear someone calling out "Hallo! Hannah?" I look around in confusion. I must have fallen asleep.

"Hallo" the voice calls out again this time from the hallway outside the bedroom. I get out of the bed and walk out into the hallway. Kendal looks at me and for a moment she looks just as confused as I feel.

"Hey" she says and smiles. "I was hoping to talk to you? If you don't mind?"

I nod my head not knowing what else to do.

"Can we sit down?" She takes a step towards me and smile brighter than before.

"Sure. The living room?" I managed to get out.

"I could use some fresh air. How about the bench in the backyard?" She suggest.

"Sure" I repeat.

We walk out in silence and take place on the small bench at the back of the house. From here the forest is visible but the entrance of the house is not. Somehow the privacy of the bench makes me uncomfortable. It's just me and her. No one can see us. See me.

"So I've wanted to apologize to you for some time now. I haven't treated you very nicely and I truly feel so bad about it. I guess jealousy got the best of me," she looks at me in silence for a moment before she continues "but I never wanted to make you feel bad. I always thought Marc and I had something special. That he would choose me over everybody else. He made me feel so good, made me feel so.. protected. And when you arrived and suddenly all I was to him, was someone to have sex with. And don't get me wrong the sex is good, but I miss seeing him in the daytime and not only when he comes to my house at night"

I feel the tears trying to break free behind my eyes as she tells me about their nightly get-together. I knew Marc didn't want me. I knew he wanted a wolf. But still the confrontation of the subject makes my heart break.

"He broke my heart. Made me feel like I wasn't good enough. Marc can really make you feel special, so when he suddenly finds someone new to give his attention to, it hurts. And I thought that maybe you feel the same. That we actually aren't that different. So I guess what I'm trying to say is, if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. I know you tried to escape Hannah. And clearly it didn't work. If you ever want to give it another go, I'm willing to help you. To get you home to your family"

Stunned by her words I don't respond. He broke her heart? I guess I can understand why. Marc does make me feel special. He makes me feel safe and protected just like she did.

"One day he will find the one he wants to mark, and I know it won't be either of us. I heard him telling people at the field today, that he still doesn't want you. That he will do whatever it takes to make sure the bond is broken" she says and gives me a sad smile.

"I have to go, but remember that I'm here. If you ever need someone to talk to, someone who knows what it's like to be a second choice, just let me know"

She walks away and I just stay on the bench, trying my best not to let the tears out. I know it irrational to be sad. He never hid the fact that he doesn't want me. And I have known all along that I'm not supposed to be in a relationship. Not with Marc or anyone else. I'm simply not allowed to. But the last few weeks has been so good. I've never felt so good. I actually let myself fell like I belonged here for a moment.

"Hannah!" I hear Marc call out. "Hannah!" The panic in his voice is clear as he roars my name.

I want to answer him but it's like my mouth and my brain doesn't know how to cooperate.

"Hannah" I look up and see him stalking towards the bench. He looks relieved as he steps within reach.

Seeing him makes me realize that he might be the cause of my breaking heart, but he is also the one that makes me forget about the pain as soon as he's near me.

"Fuck.. I thought.. Why was Kendal here?" He breathes out and and sits down next to me. He runs his hand through his hair and look at me with a worried expression.

"She just came to apologize" I say in a low voice.

"Apologize for what? What has she done?" He suddenly looks mad.

"Nothing. She just wanted to apologize for not being very nice when I first came here" I say not sounding as convincing as I wanted.

"And what else?" He ask as if he knows that I'm holding something back.

"Nothing," I lie, not wanting to tell him that she offered to help me escape, that she told me about what they do at night or that she was right about how he made me feel. And that she's probably right about how I'm going to feel when this is all over.

I feel the tears threaten to come forward again, so I do what my heart is begging me to do. I wrap my arms around his neck and pull myself closer to him. Without hesitation he puts his arms around me as well. Just like he did last night. I almost expect my heart to start beating rapidly or my breath to get stuck in my throat as it usually does when someone touches me - especially if they where this close.. But it doesn't happen. I feel myself relaxing in his arms and realize that I actually trust him way more than I thought I did, and it only makes my heart break even more knowing that I'll lose him eventually.

"Why are you sad?" He whisper and tightens his hold on me

"I just thought about how it's going to be once the bond it broken. I'm gonna miss you so much" I confess and let the tears run freely down my cheeks.

His arm moves from by back and down under my legs, and then in one swift motion he pulls me into his lap and hug me tightly.

"I'm gonna miss you too" He says  and kisses the top of my head. The emotions are overwhelming me, and all I can think to do is just tightening my hold on him as well and burry my face in his neck. How and when did this man become such an important person to me?