google translate - s.akashi

14 | [name] avoids her problems

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[NAME]

i haven't been to actual school in a week and a half. i only show up for practice then i go home again. i haven't spoken to akashi in a week and a half. i've had my phone turned off completely, i only check it once and while to talk to my mom when she isn't home, and when i do check it there are usually messages from akashi. he sent me a couple yesterday, but i haven't replied. i haven't replied to any of them.

i hadn't meant to tell him i like him. it sort of just slipped out. when i realized it slipped out i freaked out and ran away. i was moving so fast i literally fell down the stairs. i got out of that incident with a sprained wrist. it healed in about three days.

akashi probably thinks i'm weird. for liking him and for running away like that. i should have just kept my mouth shut.

i've already tried to flee the country. i texted my dad to ask if i could come back and live with him. he said he personally didn't have a problem with it, but he said my mom would lose her shit. i also don't have money to buy a plane ticket, so that plan wasn't going anywhere. i'm stuck here. for now. ill think of something else.

i am a little concerned about the amount of school i'm missing. without akashi i'm not getting any notes from any of my classes. i'm now realizing how much i actually leaned on him and relied on him. i miss him.

i get a notification on my phone. i had turned it on because my mom needed me to know if she would be working overtime tonight or not. it should be her, but it isn't. it's another text from akashi.

it's one in the afternoon. it's not like him to text during class.

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sejuro🔥🗣 (🫶?)

i'm coming to see you today

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i struggle to formulate a response. maybe i should get a new number. i'm not talking to akashi because i don't like him anymore. i'm not talking to him because i'm embarrassed, and i don't want to make him uncomfortable.

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sejuro 🔥🗣 (🫶?)

i'll be there in 5

oh hey!! 😆☺️😝

she speaks.

don't you have class💀

i'm going to skip

fr?

for real.

shit

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i start to panic. he's probably coming here to berate me and call me a loser for ever thinking he would like me back.

i'm going to run away. i scramble into my room and begin throwing things into the suitcase i moved here with. i'll hitchhike.. somewhere. tokyo? my mom talked about going to visit tokyo so it must be nice. but where would i stay?

i pull out my phone and quickly type in 'cheap hotels for runaways in tokyo'. my mouth forms an 'o' shape as many results pop up. is it bad that i don't even have forty dollars for a hotel room?

i rip my security blanket off my mattress and wrap it around me like a cloak. no time to grab a jacket i need to get out of here as soon as possible.

i pull my rolling suitcase behind me into the kitchen, where i open one of the cabinets and shovel a bunch of granola bars into my suitcase.

i scream when i hear a knock on the door. has it really been five minutes? did he tell me it was going to be five minutes so i wouldn't be able to get away in time?

i say fuck it to the suitcase and sprint to the window.

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AKASHI

i hear a window open just off to the side of the building. i sigh. is she really trying to escape through the window?

i move to the edge of the building, slowly. i make it just in time to see [name] hoist herself out the window. she loses her balance and falls on her back.

"[name]."

she stands up and uses her thumb to point behind her. "hey sejuro! nows not a good time i have gardening to do."

i scrunch up my nose at her blatant lie. "you don't have a garden."

"i'm going to make one!" with that she begins to walk behind the building.

"i like you too, [name]." she pauses, her body tensing up. "i didn't have time to accept your confession."

"is this a joke?" her hands are balled into fists by her sides. she looks around, checking if i'm with anyone. "you're not making fun of me, right?"

"why would it be a joke?" why would someone joke about something like this. i don't quite understand why she thinks i would be joking. "you know i wouldn't joke about something like that." i frown.

she looks like she's struggling to believe me. i walk forward so i'm standing directly in front of her. we're the same height so our faces are at level. "i'm not joking, [name]. i like you and i want you to be my girlfriend." i can feel my expression soften.

"i would like to be your girlfriend." she looks away, avoiding eye contact with me for a moment. she gathers herself before turning to back to face me. "actually, i would love you be your girlfriend." she pauses, it looks like her eyes water a little. "i'm sorry i avoided you for so long. that was really immature of me. i was just really, really embarrassed." she laughs nervously.

"it's okay. i can forgive you. just talk to me next time, okay?" i smile softly at her, before pulling her into a hug. "so, you will be my girlfriend?"

"yes. yes please." she holds me tighter. "want to come inside and online shop with the money i don't have?" she offers, before climbing back into the apartment through the window. i hear a loud thump on the other side as she lands. "i was going to buy a plane ticket and flee the country but then i realized i only have twenty dollars to my name."

i missed her.

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could not hold back any longer