You Can't Run Forever (BoyXBoy) - Behind Closed Doors Series

Chapter 5

~*~ A/N: Sorry this took waaay longer to update than expected!! Thanks everyone for all the reads and comments. :D Anyway, these next few chapters have a few flashbacks so sorry if it gets confusing :/ ~*~

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My mind is racing as I walk away from my house along the footpath yet again. God I've fucked up again. Like I always do. And I can't believe I just told them that I'm suicidal! That was so stupid! They only know about the overdoses though, not my other attempts. What the hell have I gotten myself into... If I wasn't such a stupid idiot in the first place I wouldn't be in this postition now...

*Flashback to about 3 months ago*

"Hey Fag! Oi I'm talking to you!" I look out the corner of my eye to see Fletcher walking toward me. I keel walking and ignore him, so he tries again. "Fairy! What're you doing here? I thought you were too 'cool' to come to school now!" He's walking right beside me now, so I stop and turn to face him.

"Just fuck off already!" I yell at him. He just sneers at me.

"Tryin' to act all 'tough' now are you? What are you gonna do, beat me up? Or maybe you'll get one of your stupid druggies to do it for you!" That catches me off guard. How would he know about that? I grab his shoulders and slam him against the building beside us.

"What do you know about that?!" I scream in his face. He actually looks quite shocked at my sudden retaliation. "I said, what do you know?!" Again, he stays silent. "Answer me!"

"You think locking your bedroom door will keep everyone out, do you? You're not very good at hiding stuff either. I mean seriously, inside your pillow case? Under the mattress? They're so obvious- " he says, looking quite pleased with himself as my face pales.

"Why were you in my room?" I ask, not yelling anymore because I'm in too much shock.

"I wanted to see it, so Kelly showed me which one it was and I picked the lock. Your sister's pretty dumb you know. I told her we were hanging out the other day and I accidentally left something in your room, so she actually believed me and let me go in while she went down stairs."

"Why were you with Kelly anyway" I question.

"You like asking questions don't you? Anyway, me and Kelly are 'going out' now. She thinks we're like 'exclusive' or something. Her and 5 other girls... Of course, they don't know I only use them for the sex. Not that you would understand that, would you faggot?"

"You asshole! Cheating on my sister!" With that I punch him in the face and run off. I can't handle being at school today anyway.

*end flashback*

Even thinking about it has made me angry. Fucking Fletcher... I think if I could kill him without ending up in jail I would. Then again, I think I probably did enough damage the first time. It's all his fault to begin with. This mess I'm in right now would never have happened if it weren't for him.

I keep walking along the footpath away from my house, deciding to go to the train station. I just need to get out of this stupid town, away from everyone I know. I put my iPod in and blast some music to get my mind off all that's happened and escape reality for a while. Once at the station I get on a train to Willowhill, not really knowing where else to go. By the time I get to Willowhill it's almost 1pm. I wander around the shops there for an hour or so, but don't buy anything. I don't plan on going home anytime soon, and the only money I have is the cash I shoved in my backpack which I'll need for food. I sit down on the same bench I did this morning, outside all my favourite shops. I take my backpack off and put it beside me, keeping a tight hold on it so no one will steal it.

My mind starts racing again, replaying all the events that have led up to now. If you had have asked my 3 or 4 months ago where I would be right now, I never would have said that I would be trying to find somewhere on the street to sleep for the night. I have a smoke to try and clear my head, but it doesn't really work so I pop a few pills too.

Suddenly my eyes fly open when I hear a bang. I sit up and realise I must have fallen asleep, and its now almost dark. I look to my right and see a woman picking up a box she must have dropped, which explains the sound that woke me up. According to my watch it's 6:30pm. The sun is just about to set, and I don't want to be walking around in alleys too long after it gets dark, so I grab my stuff and start searching for somewhere to sleep where it's off the street a bit.

After an hour, I find a spot between two shops that seems suitable. I walk down the small passage and settle against the wall behind a garbage bin. I'm just out of sight of anyone on the street, so I should be safe enough. Even though I slept for hours earlier I'm still pretty tired. I don't think I'll be sleeping much tonight though because quite honestly, I'm shit scared of being out in the open like this during the night. The worst part is that I'll have to do this tommorow night as well. And the night after that. What the fuck has my life come to?