Lourtney (Luke and Courtney) Fanfiction

Regrets but Love.

*the next night*

"Goodnight my love! Have a rest okay? Wake me up if you need anything. Anything at all." Joel said, kissing Moriah goodnight. Joel walked over to the small visitor bed, which was very close to the main one, where Moriah was lying. Joel fell asleep. 

"You're such a bad mother! God hates you! The baby will resent you! Joel's gonna break up with you! Joel's pretending to love you! You're baby will be so angry at you! Gods so mad at you! Gods gonna take the baby!" Moriah's head filled up with horrible thoughts. She started to secretly cry, being wary of Joel's close proximity. 

"YOURE SUCH A BAD MUM! YOURE DAUGHTER WILL DIE AND ITS ALL YOUR FAULT!" Moriahs thoughts started getting louder and louder and her sobs got louder and louder. 

The thought of her daughter dying and that it was all her fault was ringing and ringing around her mind like a forever long carousel. The sobs were loud now, and her tears were flowing heavily now.

"Maybe you should die. You deserve it!" 

Joel woke up. 

"Moriah?"

"I'm fine Joel! Go back to sleep!"

"No! You're not fine! I can hear in your voice that there's something wrong"

"Sorry."

"No! Don't be! Are you okay?"

"Yeah.."

"You don't sound fine! I'm turning the light on."

"No!"

"Yes!"

"Moriah?! Are you crying?!"

Moriah sniffed. "No?"

"Pff you expect me to believe that? Come 'ere! What's goin on?" Joel held her close. 

"It's all my fault Joel! Please! Don't act like you love me! Just sign the divorce papers!"

"What?! Moriah!!! My goodness! What's going on in your head?! It's NOT your fault and I love you to bits! I'll love you forever!"

"You're just pretending!" 

"My dear, what are you talking about?" 

"I know you secretly hate me for not going to the doctors..you don't have to pretend that I didn't make you mad. I know I'm a bad mum." 

"Moriah! Oh my goodness! No! You didn't make me mad and I do not hate you! There's no hate or anger inside me! Just pure love for you and our daughter!" 

"..."

"To be honest, I actually understand why you didn't go to the doctor. I can't imagine the thoughts that raced around your head when you found out you were pregnant, especially when the doctors told you you were infertile. I can't imagine that. I wouldn't have gone either. I would be scared too! So I don't hate you. I don't even dislike you! I LOVE YOU! And I love our baby! I'm just curious though, why didn't you tell me you were pregnant and why didn't you tell me you were experiencing contractions?" 

"Well, the truth is, I didn't want to tell you that I was infertile and that I had become pregnant because you would have MADE a me go to the doctors and I just really didn't want you to find out that the baby was unhealthy. I also didn't want to interrupt your movie, the movie YOU star in to tell you I was in labour. I couldn't tell you yet that I was said to be infertile and then I was pregnant."  

"But you didn't know the baby was unhealthy though did you? And Moriah? Let's make this clear, k? You're health is so much more important than a movie!" 

"No. I just really didn't know how you'd react, if you'd break up with me or-"

"What?! I would never break up with you Moriah! I love you so much! I am here for you in the good times and the bad. I-"

*Ring Ring* It was Moriah's phone. 

"Hello?"

"Hi! Is this Moriah Smallbone?"

"Yyyess.. it is.." 

"My name is Peter Williams. I'm the neonatal paediatrician. I'm looking after your daughter."

"Is is is she o o okay?"

Joel got up and sat next to Moriah, eyes widened, waiting for a response. 

"Well, we need your permission to do an operation. She has an Annular Pancreas which means there's a ring around her duodenum that's not supposed to be there. We need to do surgery right away to avoid pancreatitis and other big medical risks. She could die any minute. Is this okay to do so?"

"Yes! Yes! Yes! Don't ask! Just do what you need to do! Just please call me when it's over!"

"Okay! I will write that down! Bye!"

"Bye!"

Moriah and Joel sat together and prayed really hard. The baby came out perfectly fine! 

"Moriah?" Joel said. 

"Yes?" 

"We need to choose a name for our little one."

"Okay... what will you choose?"

"I think you should choose her name." Joel smiled. 

"No! I don't deserve it. I murdered my own child."

"No you didn't! She's still fighting"

"But she shouldn't have to! It's all my fault!" 

"No, sweetheart, it's not. It's definitely NOT your fault! Plus, you delivered her! Please, choose her name."

"Ugh fine! This is one of the things you don't stop asking until you get your way, isn't it?"

"Yep!" Joel chuckled. 

Moriah smiled. 

"Theres that smile again!" Joel said happily. 

"Maybe we should name her Ella?"

"Ella huh? I like that name! Ella Smallbone!" 

"No Ella Peters!" Moriah joked. 

"Nah, Ella Peters Smallbone!"

"We just need a middle name.. you choose this time." 

"Are you sure?"

"Your her dad!" Moriah smiled. 

"Oh fine! Uhh how about Celine?"

"Ella Celine Peters Smallbone! I love that!" 

Hope you guys liked this chapter! There's light now! Just wait til the baby dies.. 😂 no! kidding kidding! I wouldn't give you guys that info it would just happen! But don't worry! It's not.. unless I change my mind.. I promise Luke and Courtney will be in the next part! Sorry! I went off in a tangent without thinking 😂