His smile/ vegaspete

Chapter 16

Pete
FLASHBACK
Past
"So this is our home?we'll be living in it forever!" I say in excitement and look at Vegas, he's smiling wildly at me like always "I'm never letting you go Vegas"
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Present
Pete
I get up from my sleep with tears in my eyes. I dreamed about him again, his words replay back in my head "I'm never letting you go Pete" "THAN WHY DID YOU, YOU BASTARD!" I scream in pain and frustration, my sobs escape my mouth and I grab my heart because it hurts, it fucking hurts so much that I want to end it all. I just want to disappear, everything, I don't even have anyone so who would care anyways? But I'm a selfish prick because I don't want to die I just want a happy life. I try to get up from my bed every morning like everyone else but it's too hard, that one simple thing is hard for me, I don't enjoy life anymore, I don't even remember the last thing I smiled just smiling is hard for me I just don't want to wake up anymore it's exhausting. It's exhausting to go outside and try to be social when inside you just want to go to your bed and never leave your room again. I don't want to see peoples faces anymore. Fuck you Vegas, fuck you. Fuck you for leaving me and Fuck you for playing with my feelings and making me feel like a dumbass for believing you actually liked me, "Fuck you!" I yell through my crying. "Pete are you alright" One of the nurses in the psych ward rushes in because of my screaming.
FLASHBACK
Past
3 years ago
Pete
I get up from my alarm and pat the other side of the bed for Vegas but he isn't there, huh? He never leaves for work before waking me up and saying goodbye, maybe he did but I didn't get up from deep sleep, I push the thought away. I go to the bathroom and do my routine while also whining to myself about missing Vegas but I don't want to whine to him about how he didn't wake me up to say goodbye. I finish my routine and head downstairs so for breakfast. There's pancakes that Vegas made on the table so I sit down to eat enjoying the food that he made himself, I love the little things he does, that thought makes me smile, picking up my milk I'm about to drink it but see a sticky note on the fridge, I smile and run over to read it 'meet me at the cafe near my workplace after I'm finished with work, I have something to tell you.' I stare at the note in confusion, what would he want to tell me? My heart starts beating fast in nervousness, "calm down Pete it's probably just another one of his jokes" I say to myself so I could calm down. After doing the dishes and cleaning around the house I don't have much time till Vegas is done with work so I rush upstairs to get changed. I go with a brown cargo jeans with a white T-shirt under a green cardigan with my green converse, I fix my heart spray on some perfume and am out the door. I arrive at the café before Vegas so I end up ordering a milkshake before he comes, the waitress brings my milkshake and I thank her, I drink some of it than I see Vegas, I smile at him but my smile fades because he looks at me with a frown, "Are you ok? What happened?" I say in a soft voice because it looks like something happened, "I'm ok" I frown at him, he's never like this this with me, even when he's had a bad day he still smiles at me or tells me what's bothering him. "So what did you want to tell me?" I break the silence between us, Vegas looks nervous and that makes me confused why's he nervous? "I'm done pretending Pete" huh? I freeze not knowing what to say, because what is he talking about? "What do you mean?" I say in confusion "I mean I'm done with pretending I like you Pete, I don't, I just played with your feelings because I was bored and it was fun at first but now I'm bored so I'm done, I don't want to see your face anymore it's getting really boring" I stop not being able to move but without me even knowing I begin to cry, uncontrollably my tears drop and I don't even have anything to say, my heart hurts too much for me to say anything, I stare at him with tears in my eyes but he has a blank stare not even caring about my state "no Vegas... please stop... please don't make jokes like that" He laughs, fucking laughs while my heart is breaking into a thousand pieces "you're so pity full Pete" "FUCK YOU VEGAS FUCK YOU!" I scream because that's all I want to do I want to scream until all this pain in my heart disappears "FUCK YOU!" I punch him in the chest while he just stands there and stares at me with no expression, zero fucking expression. No love, no regret, fucking nothing. "You're a piece of fucking shit, you think playing with peoples feelings for fun is cool huh? I hope you die in hell, don't ever show me you're fucking face ever again. You're dead to me you fucker" I say in his face and run back to my car, I hit the steering wheel until my knuckles bleed while sobbing. Everything fucking hurts. Fuck you.

END FLASHBACK
present
Pete
"Pete?" I hear the nurse call my name and snap out of my thoughts "yea?" I quickly get out of my thoughts and look at her. "Pete I have good news for you" the nurse smiles at me and I nod my head for her to continue "you'll be discharged from the psych ward tomorrow, you've been here for a year and we think you're ready to only be going to therapy" I nod  again, nodding is now my way of smiling because if it wasn't hard for me to smile nowadays I would be smiling wildly, im glad to be getting out of here. She smiles and leaves the room. I lay down again looking around the small room with only my white small bed in it, it has dirt all over the walls and smells like medical stuff in it, just one more day in here and I won't have to be in this room that I've hated for a year ever again.Nurse Ann, enters and I'm glad because I feel most comfortable with her, she brings me dinner which is rice and some vegetables on top, I eat and she gives me my anxiety and depression meds that I have to eat everyday, I take them out of her hands and swallow them, she smiles "I'm proud of you Pete" what is she proud of I'm still a mess, "Thanks" I say looking at her  "you're doing really well Pete, you just need to believe in yourself just say whatever is on your mind, do you want to give it a try? She asks me and I nod "ok tell me what's on your mind" I think of him right away "Vegas" I say quickly his name being easy for me to say "Vegas? Who's that?" She looks at me, and I think of what to say but it's hard for me to say things related to him. "It's ok Pete take your time" she smiles warmly at me, "He's the person I used to be in love with" I feel like crying again but I swallow the lump in my throat "Was he your first love?" I feel tears in my eyes "yea he was" now my tears are uncontrollably dropping, Nurse Ann puts her hand on mine and gently squeezes it "Did you guys date?" She asks me while smiling sadly at me "yea but it was fake because he didn't actually like me" her smile fades and confusion is written all over her face "he played with your feelings" I nod and begin to cry again, she gently hugs me and pats my back "I'm sorry you went through that Pete, that's horrible" I nod "yea it was and still is" she looks at me sadly again "take care of yourself when you're out of here Pete" she smiles and squeezes my hand again "I'm gonna miss you Pete" "I'm gonna miss you too Nurse Ann" she smiles and leaves the room. I lay down and start thinking about everything until I eventually drift off to sleep.

YALL IM SORRY FORGIVE ME FOR NOT CONTINUING THE HAPPINESS BUT WE DID NEED SOME ANGST RIGHT😩😩🤞🏻

BE READY FOR VEGAS'S POV AND THE TEAAAA BUT IM CRYING SM FOR PETE RN☹️☹️☹️☹️🫶🏻
I HOPE YALL ENJOYED READING THIS CHAP STAY TUNED FOR VEGAS'S POV😩😩🤭

BYEE MY LOVESSSSSSSS🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻