I want you to know

Chapter 16

Selena P.O.V.

I wake up and looked around. Then I felt some arms around my waist.
I turn around to see who it was. HARRY.
"Morning love."
I face him "morning Harry."
"Is this okay? " he said pointing with his eyes to his arms around me.
"Is this okay. I like it." Shut did I just say that?
"I like it too." He said smiling.
He looked at each other without saying a word. He looked at me and then at my lips. Omg is he going kiss me? I mean I want. But then.. I don't know.
He started to lean in and his lips were ghosting above mine, his breath hitting my lips gently.
Thoughts were rushing through my mind, but soon left when I felt Harrys plumb lips on mine.
I was shocked at first,but soon kissed back gently. His lips moving at a slow paste.
Harry shifted from his spot and now was hovering above me, with both hands next to my head, supporting him.
I suddenly felt his tounge glide across my bottom lip.
I panicked a bit and placed my hands in his chest and gently pushed him back. "Babe you gotta give me access." Harry chuckled lightly.
I gave him a small smile, "Sorry."
He let out a small laugh but placed his lips on mine yet again.
I then felt his hand sliding up my leg. I knew what he was doing and at the same time he started kissing me down my neck. I like it but then no!!! Memories started coming to me. Memories of when that guy was... no I don't want to remember.
"HARRY."
"HARRY pleas stop." I said almost crying but he ignored me and continue kissing me and touching me.
"HARRY STOP PLEASE. AM SCARED." I YELLED CRYING ALREADY.
"He then quickly looked straight at me. He was scared but then it quickly change into anger and sadness.
"Am sorry." He said getting off me. I got off the bed and started putting my shoes on.
"HARRY..-"
"You should go." He said not looking at me just staring at the wall.
"Harry this wasn't you-"
"Go."
"Harry please-"
"I SAID TO FUCKING LEAVE. " he yelled turning around to face me.
I was scared. I never seen him like this. I can't be scare of him but I am.
I nodded and walked out wiping my tears away.
I started walking to my house.
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I walked in my house. No one was here in the living room. GOOD. I don't want them to see me like this. They would probably ask me what's wrong or something. And I can't face that. I can't face my brother.

I heard people talking it came from the kitchen. I knew it was Louis and if sounded like he was on the phone with someone. I didn't want him to hear me so I slowly tip toe walking up the stairs. I almost slip, shit I made noise.
"Selena is that you?" I hears my brother and I quickly froze. I started walking up again.
"I knew it was you." I turn to see louis standing at the end of the stairs.
I didn't want to speak to him.
"Selena please don't ignore me."
"am not ignoring you." I said.
"I just don't want to talk."
"Then we won't but let me just be with you."he said walking up the stairs half ways where I was.
"I just-"
"I am so sorry... what happen is all my fault."
"Isn't not. It's mine. I was dumb to go to that club."
"No it wasn't your fault."
I couldn't take it anymore. I need to let all of this out. It's killing me.
"I just can't Lou it hurts so much."
He walked closer to me and hugged me and I hugged him back.
"Come on let's go sit down." We walked into my room and sat on my bed.
"I just want to know why you didn't tell me?" He said.
I looked at the wall and took a deep breath.
"I just didn't want you to feel bad for me or disappointed on me or disgusted by me and embarrassed by me."
"I would never do that. I love you and your my sister. Don't ever forget that you will always have me. I just wish you would have told me so I could have beat that guy up."
"That's also another reason I didn't tell you. You would probably kill him." I said trying to smile.
"Yeah I would. Do you know who he was?"
"No I didn't know him and I don't remember how he looks it was very dark and-"
"Okay."
I wish I would tell him the whole truth.
"Why didn't Harry bring you?"
Shit. I can't tell him what happen.
"He mmm.."
"Selena what happened? And don't you dare lie to me. I know you to well."
"We kissed."
"Oh. And what else? "
"What makes you thing there is something else?"
He rises one eyebrow at me.
"The kiss turn more into a make out. Things got a little heated and-"
"Wait what? How dare he?-"
"Louis nothing happen because I stopped it. when we were you know...kissing memories floated back from that night.and it was just to much. Harry thinks it's his fault but it's not. He got anger at himself and he told me to leave but i know he feels guilt... he thinks it's his fault."
"Okay good. Because i didn't want to hurt my best mate. And ouch! He must think it's his fault but don't worry he will come throw. "
"I hope so. Lou?"
"Yes?"
"Can you make me something to eat?"
"Of course. Now you just rest."
"Okay but I won't to watch tv."
"Okay fine let's leave you at the living room and I will go make you something."
I nodded.

I just hope Harry is okay. I liked the kiss and I dont regret it but I don't know if he does.
Does he?
I wish I knew...
I hope he doesn't feel like it was his fault.
It wasn't his.