I want you to know

Chapter 21

Louis P.O.V.

I don't even know why I chase after. What the hell got into me?

I just saw her and all I wanted to do was hug her and all the anger and emotions I had against her are gone.

But I don't know if I want her to leave. Wait no!!! Of course I want her to leave. Or do I? honesty am so confuse. All I know is that I will see her again, I mean we have to, we have a meeting with the lawyer tomorrow morning, and am pretty sure she knows already or will know by the end of the day.

She looked so different, she certainly wasn't the same girl she was 3 years ago. She was more beautiful then ever, so strong. She wasn't even crying or showed any emotions towards the death of our mother.

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I got home, I still lived in the same place when we got here 3 years ago. But I lived alone mostly. Mom was always traveling and the lads stay here often, it was like they live here. Mostly Zayn and Harry.

I sat down on the couch and just thought about my mom, she was gone and Selena was back, but not the girl I knew, not my sister.

"I still cant believe she is here." Zayn said as he sad down next to me.

"yeah me either. She looked so different. I don't know Zayn, I don't know what I felt when I saw her. All the anger and hate changed, at that moment I just wanted to hug her, hug my sister."

"you missed her. Louis you can say all you want but you don't hate her, you miss her and all the emotions you hide this 3 years are bursting out. You can't lie to yourself anymore. She is still your sister, and you love her."

" I don't know. Maybe I do, but I just don't know. I don't know if I want her to leave. I mean should I want her to stay, or leave again."

"i get it you don't want to lose her again. you lost her 2 times already. and now that she is back. Do you want to lose her again? She is all you have left besides us of course but she is your blood, your sister."

" but I don't know what to do? what should I do? you saw how she just left out of the hospital and didn't want to be with me, with us."

"i know."

"Gosh you saw, she hit you in the stomach. Selena would never do that, not my sister. "

"I hate to say this but your right. she would never hurt anyone, but Louis you have to consider what she must have gone throw all this 3 years, you don't anything about that, did she have friends? boyfriend? how was rehab? why she didn't come back? why she never called? so many answers you need to know and she needs to know why you stop caring about her, why you never called her, or asked how she was."

" I know and I will speak to her tomorrow."

"yeah, but don't be sad or anything if she doesn't want to talk to you." he said as he got up.

"also remember you left her alone, she was alone and so were you this 3 years." he add and left to his room.

Zayn was right about everything, I left her alone, I told her I would never leave her, I promised myself I would always be with her and protect her but I broke that promise. I left her alone, making me be alone with out her. What the hell got into me?

But all I know is that I can't lose her and I wont. She can hate me but I wont lose and she wont leave. After all I am her brother, her only family.

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I heard my alarm on but I didn't want to get up. Then I remember I have the meeting with Selena. Shit I got to get up. I got up and went to my closet and got out just a shirt and some jeans. I got my phone and went down stairs to the kitchen. I looked at he sofa where there was two people laying on it. I got closer to see who it was but I had an idea of who it can be. Of course it was him. Harry with a girl. They were naked. I rolled my eyes and walked into the kitchen where Zayn was.

"Another girl. Gosh why can't harry at least take it to his room instead of the sofa in the living room." I said annoyed.

"You know Harry he doesn't give shit. He has done that for a years already. Go to a club and bring a random girl home and sleep with her. His a one night stand guy."

"yeah I know." I said as I grabbed some juice and pour it in a cup and just then Harry walked in in his sweatpants with out a shirt.

"How was last night?" Zayn asked.

"very good." he said with a smirk on his face.

"good for you.Did the girl leave already?" I said.

"yeah."

I looked at the clock. shit I have to go.

"well I have to go. See you all later, at the pizza place ?"

"sure." Zayn said.

"Wait where are you going?"Harry said.

"I have a meeting with the lawyer and Selena."

"oh." he said. I knew something was up with him. Right when I said Selena his faced changed.

I didn't know what to think. Harry was broken when Selena left. He was the first one that turned bad then it was. but he had it tough. His Mom left with this guy with out saying goodbye and that was the end of the sweet caring Harry.

I nodded and started walking out the kitchen.

"Hey mm.. at the club yesterday I saw Selena. She just wow. Dancing and drinking." Harry said.

I looked at him and then me and Zayn looked at each other and busted our laughing.

"why are you guys laughing?" Harry said confused.

"Because Harry, Selena is not that kind of person. You probably saw a girl that looked like her." I said trying not to laugh.

"Yeah Harry. You were probably all drunk, like always and didn't see clearly or thinking right. Like come on. Selena drinking? Dancing? and at a Club!!! Never!" Zayn said laughing.

"His right Harry. Maybe you need to get some sleep."

"Whatever I know what I saw, and it was Selena. Remember Louis she changed, she isn't that little girl. We don't really know her anymore."

I laughed. "Whatever Harry. I got to go."

I left the kitchen and grabbed my keys of my car.

can you believe it? Harry saw my sister at a club and dancing and drinking..

Was he that drunk???? Selena would never do that, ever. She isn't like that. like yes she changed but she didn't changed that much, Did she??

No of course she didn't she is too much of a good girl to do such thing. What's next she got a tattoo? haha no I laughed.

She is isn't like that.

but then Harry was right she did change and we didn't know her much anymore.

wait no!! why am I even thinking of believe on something Harry said. Especially because he a Drunk Harry.

Arthurs note- wow long chapter again, and am already working on the next chapter. I just keep on writing and writing. Am on fire. Nothing can stop me. Jk my mom can, got to help cook. lol. anyways vote on this chapter and I hope you enjoy it also sorry if I didn't put Selena P.O.V. but I will tomorrow maybe a Harlena moment ;) btw Harlena is Harry and Selena name together, its their ship name If you didn't know.