I want you to know

chapter 18

Selena P.O.V.

(2 more days to school)

It's been days seen I told my mother what happen. And to my surprise she was there to hold me and she told me she was sorry. I of course forgive her she lost dad and my sister.
Oh yeah also me and Harry are great friends. He asked me to forgive him and I did. We talked for hours.

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I was packing my clothes. Oh yeah one thing am leaving! Yupp that's right. I am leaving to Canada to a rehab place. I need help to get throw this,I know I have my friends help but I need time to fix myself and for that I need to leave plus that place has helped many people. Am going there for I don't know how long but whatever it takes to get better.

I told they guys and girls yesterday and they didn't take it so well, especially Harry.
He told me I was leaving him again and I told him I wasnt. We argued for hours until he left ferious. I knew that would probably be my last time I see him until am back.
But me and him weren't anything?
Yes we kissed but that's it.
Maybe it was for the best that nothing else happen between us.

"Selena are you ready?"
"Yeah mom."
Oh yeah and am leaving today.
"Come down then we have to leave already. "
"Okay."
I grabbed my suitcases and before I close the door I look at my room am not going to see this place in a while am miss it.
I walked down the stairs and there I meet my brother and mom waiting for me.
"Am ready." I said giving them a weak smile.
"Aww my babe girl am miss you do much."my mom said hugging me and I hugged her back.
"Me too mom. I love you."
"I love you too."
I pulled away and I looked at Louis and he just looked down. I know he doesn't want me to leave but he has to let me go I mean I am coming back.
"Let's go." He said walking out the door not looking at me at all.
"Honey give him some time."
"Yeah."
"You better go. Your going to miss your Flight now go and I have to go or else am miss my meeting."
I nodded and hugged her.
I walked out the door and walked to Louis car which he was already in."
I got in and he drove off. The whole ride was quiet. He wouldn't even look at me. I felt sick, sick that my own brother didn't even want to see me maybe because I got raped. He was embarrassed of me. I hate that.
We finally go to the airport. We sat down and waited for my plane to land and wait for them to let us know to go.
We were still in selienced. I didn't like it but I didn't know what to say.
"Pane 3b has planned. Passengers for 3b please check in and be ready to go."
I looked at me paper that was me.
I got up and took my suitcases. I looked at Louis and he was still not looking at me.
I guess this is how it is goodbye.
I looked at him and then I walked away.
I get tears in my eyes already. We didn't say goodbye or we didn't hug. I wanted to so bad but he was embarrassed to have me as a sister and he didn't have to say it. He lost his little baby sister. And some how I feel like I lost myself.
Wait I did lose myself.
I lost my brother, my friends, and Harry.

Maybe I should stay while in Canada after my rehab.

I think I will.

My brother, mom,friends, Harry

Would be better off without me.