Schizophrenia //h.s/NOT CONTINUTED

Research~ch.13

Louis POV

I sit down and take a sip from my coffee. 6:37am . Harry is still asleep but I want to be able to research before he wakes up and has another one of his .. attacks.

I shiver as I remember it

I turn on my laptop and put in the search bar

"Schizophrenia"

The first thing that pops up are the symptoms and signs of what you should experience. I click on one of the first few links and am surprised when I see how many symptoms there are to schizophrenia.

~Believing that what other people are saying is not true (delusions)

~Hearing, seeing, tasting, feeling, or smelling things that others do not experience (hallucinations)

~Disorganized speech and behavior

~Losing interest in everyday activities, like bathing, grooming, or getting dressed

~Feeling out of touch with other people, family, or friends

~Lack of feeling or emotion (apathy)

~Having little emotion or inappropriate feelings in certain situations

~Having less ability to experience pleasure

Hearing things, lack of emotion, losing interest . Oh my god. These are things that will happen to him. Hearing voices, that must be why he was attacking me. Feeling out of touch with people, friends. Me. He has never hurt me before and he has never attacked me like he did yesterday. Why is this all happening now?

I do more research and find out that there are stages to this disorder and apparently harry is finally getting to the stage where we should start to worry. Poor harry. This is all going to happen to him, he's going to lose his mind and I can't help him.

I can't just send him off to a mental institution or something , I don't even know what to do!

He's going to be seeing things, hearing things, freaking out, trying to hurt me. It's just me helping him and I could get hurt.

"Schizophrenic people are likely to attack people or anyone that theta think is trying to hurt them due to the voices in their head. They have extreme paranoia and because of that can not maintain jobs, relationships, etc. This makes them very anti-social and more of them fall into depression due to this."

Depression, not again. I need to find a way to help him , I need to consult a doctor and I need to do it fast. I don't know how to help him at.

For the next 2 hours all I do is more research and as I read more and more, I find myself getting scared for harry's life and for harry. This is serious. I need to get a doctor, I need someone to help control him and give him medication. How could we have not known about this before?

I walk past harry's room and check to see if he is still asleep, he is. It's 8:21. If I leave and he wakes up, will he freak out? Should I wait ?

They hear voices and have paranoia, most will fall into depression and try to hurt themselves or even kill themselves because of this. Leaving them alone wouldn't be a good idea

I can't leave him alone. I'm going to have to wait until he wakes up. I could use this time to watch some videos about people with this disorder, surely there are people living with this that aren't so bad.

I sigh and walk back to the living room and go to YouTube.

~An Hour Later~

I don know whether to feel like theres hope or to be scared. I saw many people living with this that are living and realize what they have and have gotten help , and then I see people who just... can't get it together. There's even schizophrenic kids! Those poor children even know what they have and can't control themselves, they're scared of themselves and what they will do to their family.

"Louis, what are you doing?" I hear harry voice

I turn around and see him yawning and immediately close my laptop.

"Harry , hey. How are you feeling?" I ask carefully, with all the new knowledge I have on this disorder, I know to be careful.

"I'm hungry" He says and sits down by me , laying his head on my shoulder.

I tense and my heart saddens when I realize that I'm scared of him. He's not a monster.

He suddenly gets up and looks at the wall. I read about this

They hallucinate.

"I saw bugs on the walls"

"Um harry hey lets go c'mon" I say , hopping to distract him. He looks at me and I can tell he's hearing things.

"No c'mon harry its me, it's ok" I say. He stays still for a moment and then comes to me.

"Good.C'mon were going to go somewhere ok?" I say . Please don't freak out harry.

He nods and I feel my whole body relax. I walk him outside and put him into the car. I make sure he's ok and then get in.

I can't really tell how long this is and I'm sorry if it disappoints any of you , I wanted to let you guys know a little more about this disorder so that you know exactly why harry Is now acting like this. I will update next Monday as well and may even make a new story that I update lots ;)