Harry's POV
[[Sorry it was short but please understand]]
"Hey Louis. Louis. Louis wake up . Louis!" I throw a pillow at him and he groans. I look down at him from my bed, he's on the floor. He decided that the chair was way to uncomfortable and he would rather sleep on the floor. I threw another pillow at him, I only had 2 so I ran out quickly.
"Louis would you mind getting the nurse and telling her to get me out of here." I say as nicely as I can. I want to leave. A week in this place is hell , especially with Jess deciding to appear much more often now. Thank God Louis stayed true to his word and hasn't left me alone, Jess is being nicer and now she only comes and smiles at me and talks to me. She gets upset when I don't respond and seeing her upset is terrible.
You know how you feel guilt ,so much guilt for not doing something and you feel your heart breaking at the sight of the person you love hurt. You see them frown and you see them upset. Your heart aches to touch,hug,hold them but you can't. You look at that person and you just want to love them, you want to hold them and keep them in your arms forever. If they are upset you're upset. If their happy you're happy. You feel your heart race ,your palms get sweaty, and you feel those butterflies in your stomach when you see them. You already are smiling because just the sight of them gets you happy but then your heart sinks. You know why?
Because you can't reach out to that person and hug them like you wish you could. You can't kiss them like you wish you could. You can't tell them "I love you". That person is like a star in the sky, that you reach and reach for but can't hold. I feel like Jess is my star, I admire her , I love her. My heart races at seeing her but I know that she is gone. Forever and that I can't have her with me the way I wish I could have her.
"Harry ,I'm going to talk to the doctor and see if we can leave." Louis says. I nod and start hopping Jess will appear. This time I won't call Louis. I want to see her , just for this one time.
I wait for some time. I start thinking about her , her straight brown hair that she hated because she could never do anything with it. It was so thin that it would be hard to curl or tie. How she loved to read and how she was so friendly but shy. The way she would calm me down on hard days, the way she would always be happy but still have an attitude. She was my sunshine. She was my happiness.
I then see her, standing by my bed. I don't do anything , I'm used to her appearing. She's not real but at least I can see her.
She smiles ,one of her beautiful smiles that show how happy she is.
"Jess , you know I love you right?" I tell her.
"It's not your fault." She replies. She is still smiling.
"You scared Louis the other day." I say. She laughs
"I didn't mean to, I do miss him. Harry , it wasn't your fault " She repeats.
"Remember when we first met your parents?" I ask her
"Harry , it wasn't your fault."
"Remember when you first met Louis?"
"Harry!It wasn't your fault. " She is getting irritated.
"I love you." I tell her
"I love you too. So much. It wasn't your fault ,baby. Remember that ." She says and smiles at me again.
"Don't go" I tell her, or demand.
"I love you" She says and leaves. Again my heart drops a bit. She's gone.
"Hey Harry ! Guess what! We can leave today! I signed some papers and filled out so much crap but we can finally leave." He says with a grin
"That's great! " I say smiling. I do thing this is good, finally leaving. Louis will probably want to take me somewhere to "Distract" me.
"So do you want to go somewhere when we leave?" Bingo
"Um.. I'm not sure . Could we just be lazy at home and rent a movie?" I suggest. I want to watch a comedy to get my mind of all this.
"Ok !Let's go !" He grins
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