Anything but This |C.R

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I sit playing with the grass and Chandler comes behind me
"Chandler. I meant what i said." I say as I roll my eyes
"I know. And I doesn't matter" he says sitting to face me "Im not going to hurt you Sydney"
"That's what everyone says." I sass "then I let my guard down and get trampled. Hurt beyond compare" I sigh
"I promise I will never hurt you. Sydney. Never. I swear." He says giving me a hug and I don't oblige. "Well. Im sure mom will be done with dinner soon so we should get inside." He grunts and picks me up playfully.
"Chandler. Are you still..... Ticklish. Right.... Here" I say and rapidly move my fingers by his hip and he falls to the ground beggin for me to stop
"Stop. Syd-ney st-op" he says and rolls out from my tickling. "Now you're gunna pay" he says standing up with a smirk
"KIDS SUPPERS READY" Susie screams and we run inside to eat
"Ohemgee suussiee I forgot how good your cooking was. Like. Uhh. I could eat forEVER!" I say and both of them laugh.
"Thanks Hun. No charge. Stay as long as you need." Susie repeated. She really wants to make it known.
"Thanks" I say not knowing what else to say.
"So. Are you ready for school tomorrow?" Susie asks
"No." Me and Chandler say in unison.
"Well that's good cause you're not going back there. I took online college and I want you two to take online school too. It's a danger hazard to have you at that school." She said handing us flyers about the school. She has always been my mom away from home. I guess now she is now my mom. Which is weird cause me and Chandler are a thing and ugh! Too much to think about.
"Thanks Susie." I say very gratefully
"Mom. How'd you get her dad to sign off on that?" Chandler whispers
"I have my ways son. I have my ways" she smiled and took another bite of food. "i will be in charge of studies. And you two will not be starting this year. You only have a month left of school and in my mind that can just be an extra month of summer."she said smiling
"Thanks mom. Can I be done. I need to talk with Sydney for a second." He asks taking the last couple bite of food. I've been done for a while.
"Yes you may. Thanks for asking." She said getting up and pouring a glass of wine for herself
"Cmon." Chandler says putting mine and his dishes in the sink and walking into his room.
"So. You needed to talk to m-" I was interrupted by his lips smashing into mine.
"Chan. Hey. Chand. HEY!" I yell and push him away. "I couldn't breath" I say and walking into him grabbing his head and pulling it to me. Not kissing. But looking at each other. He grabbed my cheeks softly and slowly, gently. moving our lips in sync. We back up and lay on the bed. He took my cardigan off my shoulders and placed it over our heads like a tent. I giggle and proceed at what he wanted. I inched his shirt off moving my hands across his rocks of abs. I lean up and peck his lips
"Not now" I whisper and wiggle out from under him. "I need clothes" I say putting my cardigan back only to not see Chandler in the room. "Chandler?" I say walking out into the hall. "What the he-" I was turned around and kissed.
"Sorry. Had to um. Pee." He said ruffling his hair. Damn. What is up with that!
"Yeah. Sure. 'Pee'" I say laughing knowing that he didn't have to pee. "So what did you want to talk about" I ask sitting on his bed
"About my life." He said blankly and not making eye contact
"What about it" I ask holding his chin
"My mistakes. How I never talked to you. How I shut everyone out." He said moving his head and looking back down.
"That doesn't matter." I say chuckling.
"But it does. I accepted an acting job when I was 11 and never told you. They wanted a girl part but I couldn't provide. They haven't introduced her yet but I think hey want Hana. I need them to realize that she can't. It's going to be my partner and I thought Hana actually liked me but then slept with the whole football team." He said ashamed of himself.
"Well. Tell them Hana can't. Tell them I will." I say smiling.
"You don't get it" he says shaking his head
"What's there not to get. You need a female role. I am here." I say sliding my hands by my face
"But I don't want you to see me like how they want me to act. I'm an asshole and afraid I'm going to hurt you." He said finally looking up.
"And that's a risk that we have to be willing to take. I don't want to not take this big opportunity just cause I might get hurt. I get hurt all the time and I'm fine." I say.
"NO SYDNEY YOURE NOT FINE. you just tried to kill yourself. And have had to move out of your own house." He says almost crying.
"I wanted to die." I say truthfully.
"And that's awful rude of you"
"And how's that" I ask angrily.
"Leaving me here. By myself. How could that be polite. I love you Sydney. I always have loved you." He says giving me a hug and tears running down his face
"And I'm doing that movie. Or whatever. Weather you like it or not. I don't care. I want to." I say looking him in the eyes. He nodded his head and I wiped his tears letting him lay his head back down on my shoulder tiredly.