destiel oneshots

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trigger warning: Self harm

Cas  and I were in a café
I ordered a pie
Cas ordered nothing because he doesn't need to drink or eat he's an angel
My pie came
Then Cas began to talk

"How do you feel Dean?"
"What? I'm okay"
"No you're not"

He was right i wasn't okay i mean who would be okay if He literally died over thousand times. We're in hell and saw his brother drinking demon blood and starting the apocalypse. Or saw your best friend your secretly in love with  getting killed More then once

No I am not okay.

"Doesn't matter Cas no one is ever really okay" I looked down at my pie

"It does matters...to me" he said

"Why?" I asked

"I care about you dean" he looked me in the eyes as he said that.

"Well thanks but I get trough it like I do it every time"

"You don't have to do that alone"

"Yeah I know now let me eat my pie!" 

I was hungry

"We're not over yet"

He doesn't talked anymore after this for now.
So I ate my pie. It was awesome.

When we went to my car  cas started to talk again

"You know you can talk to me dean"

"Yes I know Cas"

We went inside the car

"Why do you care so much if I'm okay?" I asked

"Because dean I care about you and I don't want you to feel bad"

This was some of the nicest things someone has ever said to me

"Thanks for worrying about me Cas"

He stayed quiet

"Are you okay?" I asked

"Of course I am"

"Cas..."

" I'm  okay dean"

"If you say so"

He just starred at the window for the rest of the ride

When we arrived back at the bunker Sammy welcomed us
"Are You guys okay?"
"Yeah" we both say

But I don't think he believed us he gave us a random look and went away.

I went to my bedroom.
I like cas.
I wanted to say it to him but I can't

sometimes there are moments I'm wondering why he saved me. Why .why. Why. Did I really deserved that? I  don't think so.

Someone knocked on my door

"It's open" I say

Cas walked in

"What do you want?"

" I am worried about you"

" Cas I'm not gonna kill myself" I laughed nervously