Taste of Ms. Alexander

Chapter 25

AMANDA "ASIA" ALEXANDER

"Hello?" I asked as I held the phone to my ear. The number wasn't saved in my contacts which left me puzzled to who it was. I could've heard distant dialogue in the background, but no one responded.

"Hello?" I asked again.

"Amanda I need yuh fi hear mi out. Mi neva did mean fi act d way how mi did ah while ago. So I war fi mek it up to u. War yuh gimmie d chance fi mi tek yuh out dis evening. Way eva yuh war go car me nah really do dem kind ah ting yah," the voice on the other end sighed.

"Anthony fuck off!" I yelled as I slammed the car door. My body slumped into seat and I reached for the seat belt, securing it across my frame.

"Yow cut d fucking attitude nuh! I jus war geh fi kno u betta. Sumn wrong wid tha? Ah kno ah move fucking shaky earlier bur leh we move pass dha. Man jus war open up to u and yar push mi way. Atleast leh me mek it up to u," he said.

"Do you realize how cold and distant you act towards me? You only reach out to me whenever it's beneficial to you. You don't care to check up on me unless you want to fuck. I'm not just looking for sex Anthony! I want more! At least a fucking how was your day would be sufficient. Then u fucking want to wonder why I started acting this way toward you! I'm not some scruff u pick up at the roadside. My worth is way higher than that. If you don't want to put in the time and effort it's best for you to leave me alone!" I responded angrily.

"Yow member we ain't in nuh relationship anuh. We never mek any agreement to anything pertaining to a relationship. Wappen the fuck was that good it made you delusional? Neva once yuh mek it clear to mi way yuh wanted other than wen u ah beg fi me fuck yuh. Yuh very vocal wen it come to that," he said.

"You're so fucking egoistic! YES! I never made it clear what I wanted from you because I was distracted my own sexual urges. Fucking dumb of me to allow you into my life when I'm most vulnerable. But you don't care about that. It's obvious you don't have any type of feelings besides your sexual desires," I angrily said.

In a haste I reversed out the parking lot and in the direction to head home.

"How cud u come up wit ah conclusion ah how me feel bur u wen I neva express my feelings to u? U tink me ah go jus push me cocky inna yuh raw if me neva did have yuh pon ah different level. I dor fuck raw without proof ah test results and it's clear dat yuh trust me too cause u neva question it. By de way wen is ur period supposed to come?" he questioned.

"It's clearly the energy you be giving off is as if u don't give a fuck. One minute your affectionate and the next you're distant. I'm sure you would feel the same way if I was doing you this. I gave you my trust in the heat of the moment but never again! Only now you care to ask when my period supposed to come! But don't even hurt up your head cause I done deal with it!" I exclaimed.

"Amanda fucking shut up! Cause me dey unda d impression dat u on birth control. Why else wud u lowe me to cum in u if u dor war kids. Anyway leh we jus cut dis unnecessary argument. Way eva d fuck yuh dey I givin u ah hour to get home and get ready. We go decide way we going wen I reach, " he angrily said and hung up the phone.

The level of toxicity in our relationship, friendship, situationship or whatever the fuck this was is fucking insane. How hard was it for him to admit that he has feelings for me that span beyond just sex. How the fuck was I supposed to know what's going through his mind. He acts as though him expressing himself to me would make him look less of a man. Like what the fuck is his issue! Why was he putting up a guard when it came to me? Or is this how he always acts in relationships? I barely knew anything about this man but here I was toying with my feelings over a cocky. A damn good cocky but was it really worth it? I yearned to learn more about him and I guess this night was my only opportunity. As much as I wanted to stop talking to him completely, my heart was eager to hear more about who he was behind the armor he brought forth.