I'll Love You From Afar🤍

Not A fan of Balls

How long must I resist the urge to jump up and down on my own heart ❤

Aviva's pov....

I cried so much, it felt like my heart bled, I couldn't watch the man I desired marry the woman I was sired to, the person whom served.
I left the wedding as soon as they kissed, the tears were choking me up and it suddenly became too much for me to pretend that I was okay when I wasn't, At that moment it felt as though I couldn't suppress my emotions, it was overwhelming and painful.
I slipped away from the wedding barely anyone paying attention to me except Tyr, when he saw the pain I carried slide down my face in a large teardrop.
I had underestimated my feelings for zenon too much but I realised I was madly in love with him, with the king of liariah who never once spared me a glance.
I walked dazed like to the maid quarters when I climbed my bed balling my eyes in my pillow, I covered my mouth so no-one would hear my pain, I cried through the trumpet sounds and I cried through the night just wallowing and mourning the man whom I loved with my every being, when I saw the sun rise, I stood up and washed myself, I decided that unless I got rid on my feelings, I would indeed keep to myself. I felt guilty of harbouring feeling towards Diana's husband.
I did my routine and saddled my horse up before anyone would see me. I ran behind a pillar in the court gardens when I heard footsteps coming to the court yard I hastily ran behind a large pillar just simply looking at the warriors saddling their horses. I saw a familar mass of light blonde hair walking to his Midnight black Stallion who stood proud and tall like its master, I stood there admiring him the longest, just simply longing for him. I snapped out of my jealousy when I saw Diana waltz out with her cloak swaying behind her,  I turned around when I saw him grab her hands softly. I thought I had cried my eyes to soreness yesterday but it seemed I heard a couple tears left.
I left her when I heard her scream at Tyr, I walked up behind her
" My lady" my voice seemed dry, a bit broken, at that point ignoring i couldn't  plaster a professional smile, she seemed to scan my face, probably why my eyes were Puffy and red.
"Are you alright Avi" I simply nodded at Tyr , I walked away because if I stood there any longer, I might be the first servant to hit their master. I stood next to my horse, it was not as majestic as Diana's nor Zenon's but it was something, I stroked her head softly, feeding her a carrot before we began out journey, The warriors started mounting their horses, normally I found it easy to climb my horse but I was seemingly weak, I had cried all my energy out.
"Let me help you" I moved from Zenon as though fire had burnt my skin, I almost stumbled on my own two feet, the wheels were turning in my head on how to politely decline him, the place between his brows wrinkled in confusion and he looked at his palms probably wondering why I had done what I did, probably wondering why I jumped away from him like that.
"I apologise your majesty, I will help her mount." He nodded hesitantly but left anyways. Tyr helped me up my horse, hi eyes glistening with tears "This is Goodbye I suppose " I gave a bitter smile, but nodded, I was afraid if I spoke to him, I would not  want to leave.
"I think it's  best you don't want to speak Avi, it would make what I am about to easier." I tilted my head sideways confused
"I am engaged to be married to Princess Ivianna of Derah" my eyes widened and a choked gasp came out of my mouth, he smiled bitterly
"I love you Avi, don't forget that" He pat my fingers, holding my gaze for a second before walking away.
I refused to turn back to look at him one more time but I also didn't want to turn my gaze forward, I could feel his eyes on me. I stayed on my horse feeling deflated and sad.