Distilled, yet not aware.

[8] INFORMAON???!? 😞😞

TW? PANIC ATTACK THINGY, IDK WHAT IT IS BUT I GUESS YOU COULD CALL IT THAT.

AND ALSO GAY PPL😱😱😨😨  (In a Style fanfic how unexpected)

STANNLEY POV😩😩😩

Craig waltzed over to me with confidence, damn I wish I could do that. He grabbed our shoulders firmly and said,

"You guys are gay."

My face flashed bright red, Kyles did too, but I think maybe out of anger.. wait why am I disappointed. My blush grew to the point were I started smiling, because that happens when I blush. Oh fuck stop stop stop stop stop shut up.

"Wow I cant believe that worked," Craig said with a hint of amusement, pushing his hands off of us.

Craig ran away while stifling a laugh, probably going to tell Jimmy or Token. Oh wait, I DIDNT RESPOND?!!!! I NEITHER CONFIRMED NOR DENIED?! IM A DIAGNOSED HOMOSEXUAL NOW. Adrenaline filled my heart, I'm not sure why but I keep getting adrenaline spikes and my heart rate goes over 200 every time I run. Eh. OH YEAH RIGHT AM I GAY??

I questioned myself before I realized I was still holding Kyles hand, for putting all my focus on my thoughts I wasn't processing visuals well so I didn't notice Kyle looking at me. I regained focus and saw Kyles pink face staring at my own in a 'O' facial expression. Uhm this is werifddszbzn. What if he thinks i'm gay now?? I don't even know what my gender is- I mean I know I'm somewhat a boy, but like there's that little bit that's just like "I do whip and neigh neigh." Ya know?

I have spent too long not reacting so I said, "so uhh, wanna make out?"

Kyles face contorted to confusion, there was a disturbing pause. "BAHHHAGAH!" He was wheezing, "Why did he say it like that??"

"Oh wait Kyle!" I started quickly, "You actually slept last night!"

"My! I guess I did.."

We smiled at each other, I wanted to hug him, but we were in class so that would be weird.

"You should get back to that paper," I pointed absentmindedly

"I- oh yeah," He sighed and went back to work.

I said everything wrong, I know that brushed over well, but I wish that conversation was more meaningful. I always act on impulse, and nothing is as meaningful as I want it to be..

The teacher taught a few things, but my random thoughts made me space some parts of the lecture. I couldn't remember most of it, I don't know why because I remember listening to it but I can't remember what it was. In the part I can remember it mentioned Mesopotamia? I thought that was strange because this is math. hmm

Soon the bell rang and Kyle tapped my shoulder,

hmm?

Kyle pulled me into a hug, my face touching his somewhat. It felt nice, warm. His hair was kinda itchy on my cheek, he doesn't know how to take care of it correctly, sometimes it's soft after he washes it. I patted his back and pulled away.

"I could tell you wanted to hug me because that's what you normally do to get emotions across in conversations."

I gaped, he knew that? That actually makes a lot of sense, of course! He paid that much attention to me?

"Thank you," I smiled at him, face relaxing, a warm buzzy feeling overcame me. He's so perfect, so nice to me. I wanna be nice to him like that too.

He smiled and grabbed his things to bring to his next period, I grabbed one of his books in an attempt to be helpful, and followed behind. Today was going okay so far! Other than Butters trying to burn down the school and us being late.. Oh wait no he just caused a reaction to the fire alarm? I don't know if I can trust my own thoughts anymore.