I had 2 dreams, one where we sat down together and he handed me a note
"I like you"
my heart raced, i was thrilled as my shaky hands wrote
"i like you too"
As i was giving it to him the dream changed.
In this dream we were running around a playground-like place and he talked to me about how he sees me like his little sister and that im the baby sister of the group- ouch right? he hugged me and placed his arm around me. These 2 dreams felt so real, the fluttering of my heart and the warm embrace.
Little did i know, these 2 dreams were the parallel universes of the day i was starting.
I told my best friend about the dream. I usually have dreams about him (dont worry, he's real) but these 2 were different, it felt different, felt so real. I told her that i liked him before but she jokingly replied that she liked him too, but i was worried it wasn't a joke so i asked her again today.
She replied "I HATE (name)/SRS WHAT I SAID BEFORE WAS A JOKE, i have a crush irl don't worry he's all yours." when suddenly..
ding!
i check my messages and it's him.
I open it and see a sad gif.
"owo?" i ask,
"I'm feeling the same feeling as before, liking someone even though i don't have a chance"
my heart skipped beat, this can't be a coincidence- can it?
After i reassured his worth, we started to talk about the girl. My head was in a haze, it felt like a dream. My heart was racing- practically beating out of it's chest.
there's no way-
it couldn't be me- could it?
these thoughts raced through my mind making me turn red as i could no longer focus on the YouTube video i was watching.
He gave me hints that turned out to be false. Stuff like
"I don't think you and the gang know her"
"Ill stalk your Facebook to see if you were classmates with her- OMG YOU WERE!"
I gave him some names and he said it wasn't them, then i started to reveal my suspicion that he was lying- that it was actually someone in our friend group. He stopped replying, i knew he was flustered because i was right. I decided to ask him 2 questions that he has to answer and this moment changed everything.
"Okay here's the first question, is the person you like- (my best friend)?"
no response for awhile so i continued
"Would you like me to ask the 2nd question or should i wait for your response?"
he sends a gif saying "the second one"
my whole world stops as i take a deep breathe and type
"Okay i was kinda nervous to ask this,
am i the person you like?"
no response for awhile as my heart pounds
i get nervous and ask him to reply, then i try to keep guessing
"Is it actually someone we don't know?"
One of the friends in the friendgroup chats the GC and i get an idea
"OMG is it (friend)?"
My brains tells myself not to get too hopeful, not to have wishful thinking, but my heart can't help but flutter in excitement waiting for those words, that it's actually me.
he says that it's the first question.
he likes my best friend.
and just like that, my rapid heartbeats and the shaking joy of my hands disappeared. As my now calm demeanor read the words "the first question".
the wistful spell of love left me in a haze, it felt like a dream as we talked about the person he liked. And when it was over, him liking me back was one too.
I wasn't planning on confessing to him, because i wasn't ready for a commitment. But now the reason is different.
I then asked him why he liked her- i was asking as her best friend and also as someone who saw him the way he saw her. He gave me a paragraph worth of words and it was so bittersweet. I could see my flaws, where i went wrong, why i wasn't his type. But at the same time i was happy for her, everything he said was so sweet about her. The way he talked about her... was like the way i talked about him.
he told me his hands were shaking, his breathing- abnormal, he was flustered thinking about her. Just like how i was before i found out.
We, with the group, later played an online game together like we always do. I felt like his wingman, now that i knew who he liked- we could talk about her alot.
At that moment i knew there was no use trying to impress him if he was trying to impress someone else.
This isn't the first time a guy i liked ended up falling for my best friend. This is around the 6th time. But it's fine with me, they can't control who their hearts beat for, just like the way i can't stop my feet from falling for them.
But just like all those times, it still hurt.
I later told my best friend that i didn't like him anymore. That was a lie. She believed it even though she found it a bit suspicious at first.
but i just thought,
Maybe by saying that, he'd have a chance this way.
I had this video in my YouTube playlist for a long time (because i liked the thumbnail + concept)
Today is the first time im listening to it.
Fighting to all the souls who love too much- just like me.
Signed,
Luna
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Dear readers, this was written in 02-06-2022. I first wrote it on Tumblr. Since I made this book, I decided to post it on here too because I'm too lazy to write the whole story again LMAO
ps. I decided to make this the 2nd chapter of the book as it seems like a good introduction.
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